This is a redraw from an old picture of me. It shows that on the OUTSIDE I'm carefree and optimistic, always smiling, and full of energy.

But that's just on the outside. The REAL person I am is someone who is extremely timid with high anxiety and full of fear of the world around me.

Lately, I've been feeling a lot of stress lately. At my job we got a new computer system when it comes to placing orders and printing invoices, and it's been taking me a while to learn the new system.

This week alone has been rough. Customers who placed orders either didn't show up to pick them up or showed up late, which caused me to be late to my other stops, I got additional customers, such as schools, which made it nerve-wracking driving to unknown places, and I got yelled at a few times. In addition, I was SUPPOSED to have a five-day weekend, but my jumper (a driver who does a route on a driver's day off) decided to use his sick time to take a week and a half off, causing me to suffer working extra days.

I'm also stressed out when I got an email from my Krav Maga instructor... I've been invited to take the Yellow Belt test! Am I excited? Yes... but at the same time, I'm scared shitless. Not the test (because one time we had the Yellow Belt test and, even though I wasn't testing, I was allowed to jump in and partake in it with the test-takers, so I KNOW what to expect) but what scares me is what comes AFTER the test... higher expectations! It's scary moving forward.

There is also something else. I'm going to be going to DisneyWorld in a month... and I'm honestly having mixed feelings about it. I don't know WHY I'm so stressed out about it.

Anyway, this is just a picture of me venting out my anxiety to you all.