re-reading the notes, the desire to draw this story is lost, perhaps because I re-read the story closer to its end. When Luthiali was originally created as an absolute image, it became more like an agonizing animal, which no longer understands where its own and where is alien.
"January 2, 2020
Lou sat for a while, feeling the fragments of his soul crumbling. The whole world felt very strange, big and alien, as if it took forever to touch the nearest wall. Normal thinking was out of the question. Lou got up looking around.
The room was empty, but he also continued to hear crying, and a periodic scream was added to the sound.
Lou touched his face with his newly bleeding hands, missing burnt skin. He again staggered obediently behind this sound, no longer thinking if he was in his mind. "

art on January 16, 2020.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44.....oad-successful

this story has both bad and good moments, and they are worth a lot for me, because this is a story about life and not an interesting fairy tale.