apologies for the sudden vent but just really wanted to get this off my chest.
im so scared to die and make zero social impact but i cant figure out how to make the change.

im so tired of never talking. im so tired of being quiet but i cant even speak. im so scared ill die and forever be known as the one who never said a word.
i feel incredibly lonely bc i cant even bring myself to talk, my anxiety eats me alive every waking minute of the day. being quiet is killing me quite literally.
i feel like im nothing and a nobody and i dont want to anymore.
but im so scared to talk
i dont even know why
i love talking to people and making friends it brings me more joy than most people know
but i cant. i have such a hard time responding bc i overthink every word i type, i cant evermessage back bc im so scared what to say.
i dont want to come off boring or uninterested or annoying and overbearing.
i just want to be myself but its impossible
im so tired of being faceless
im going to die a nobody