I wanted to put a small story down here, explaining the scene and capturing the magic and joy of Christmas, but... Im feeling a little somber on this holy night.

Me and Kota are trying to move in together, and its been really hard on both of us, especially since my family has always made it difficult for me to really be independent and look out for myself. I wont go into detail about Kotas financial situation, but I dont have a real job so the only money I can get is through commissions, which have been slow.

But even beyond that, another thing has been plaguing my mind lately. Ive recently had to accept that I want to have children with Kota. I mean at this point its obvious, I made fanchildren for the both of us, it kinda goes without saying doesnt it? The thing is though, children are expensive and ive been put through sexual abuse to the point where I cant even go to a gynecologist because I dont like people touching me down there. So almost immediately after accepting that I do want children, I have to accept that I most likely wont be able to. And it hurts. I dont understand why, but it hurts so much that I cant have a happy life with my wife and our children.

Im sorry for the sob story. I will be creating more consistently next year, I promise. Kota belongs to  wittlewolfykota