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A piece I did in 2019 about how optimistic I was for 2020. Well that year wasn't great(mainly October to end) but then came 2021 which, like most years, around the end got a bit shitty, nothing that likely effects me for more than a few weeks and definitely not 2020's end bad. But 2021 was a recovery year and you know what? I recovered. Onward to 2022.





I realized I gave a lot to people and didn't get a lot back(not regarding most of my friends), realized a lot of people over the years have assumed we were friends when we were acquaintances(did you know porcupine mating starts with the male pissing all over the female and her approving of it before they proceed?). Like people I immediately knew I'd never like or such. But I like learning from people. I like talking to people with polar views. Until I realize their hate is just all consuming for them and then I move on. I've a few people who I knew who have been outed in the past for their terrible behavior. When you realize someone is too busy focused on holding things back because of species drama or hybrid bs(looking at you, goat), you just gotta keep on going.
I do think they all tick similar boxes, really. Trust me, if someone's too obsessed with cancel culture or cringe culture or trying to define fandoms or judging things like YCHs or base art, it's not worth it. You can tell them how bases began way back in history with paper dolls. You can explain a base from a YCH, you can tell them a sparkledog is not the end of the world.
It's the end of their world for the day.

I learned that in the history of well.

Everything.

I have only lost like five friends -in the bad ending way- over twenty plus years online. Like most were early 2010s people but really all of my relationship(see dating) end amiciable and we still talk when we run into each other. My old friends I haven't seen in years still say hello. People I don't talk to much are here or there but still not along the line of friends.

I've lost more people who matter significantly more since I was little during growing up. It's shocking, really.

This is just a summary, but I've hung around some nasty people and dealt with some of the worst on sites and that's fine. I'm fine. I've grown so much from being a young teen in the 2010s to becoming an adult. I've maintained friendships for twenty years almost in some circles, and I've got a lot of siblings and that feels rad in a lot of ways.

So let's see what comes after molasses January and hopefully it's good.