That's awesome -- you are as you are. We tend to judge beauty on a scale of , what I would call, "gender extremes". If you are very masculine looking -- you are handsome, and if you are very feminine-looking you are beautiful. We are taught from an early age that failure to meet these criteria is interpreted as a state of "ugliness". From your words, I get the feeling that you have placed these pictures of yourself here awaiting judgment from a group of accepting individuals who call themselves "furries". You've made yourself vulnerable and obviously so, and this makes people nervous, because people don't like feeling vulnerable.

I am here to tell you to stop judging yourself based upon a female versus male scale. You are at neither pole of the gender spectrum, and any comparison between you and either extreme, and interpreting the large difference between you and such extremes as gap to close, with a failure to do so judging you as less of an individual is a betrayal of your nature and very self-hurtful. You make art of you and your mate together as hermaphrodites -- and we are what we imagine ourselves to be. :)

I think if the world was less shame-based, we wouldn't need to make excuses that a honest observation is too cruel, and everyone could be as they are.

Live as you are and use your nature as you are to propel yourself forward. For example, my family has always been very close to each other for many generations. Back in the 1980's and earlier, when my grandparents were still alive we would have massive family reunions. My grandparents hosted the reunions. These reunions were so large that they took place in a hotel and we would usually remove vacancy from the hotel while we were there. See for many generations in my family, when a man came to age, he did not set out on his own to travel the world. He instead built a house next to his parents house and raised his family there. Many people cannot see that there could be possible evolutionary benefits to a family that sticks close to each other. The elders would be the grand patriarchs of the family, and when they died, it was expected that the next-oldest would take their place.

Society changed, the young were taught differently in schools, the old died, and the young were left confused and on their own. The expectations placed upon me by society feels alien and conflicting compared with how I was raised, being expected to move on my own without support when it is our nature to use the momentum of each other to accomplish great tasks.

My grandparents on my mother's side were landlords and before that they were pioneer aviators. My father's side of the family were farmers. Very traditional -- conservative doesn't describe us adequately. The family had it's own rituals (reunions, harvests, holidays) and that we were taught to spend at least some time with each other so that when we would be met by the world, we would give off -- what could best be described as an "aura" -- you would know when you were in the presence of someone from our family.

That's all gone now in this new century. Life feels as though the CPU has been pulled from the computer and the rest of the components are now expected to function normally as though nothing serious has happened.

I guess I'm trying to use this example to explain that people, due to differences in evolutions of cultures within the same species, do better under different circumstances. Create a world for yourself where you can be successful at doing what "feels right" for you. Indulge in doing what feels right for you and change your environment (starting with your immediate surroundings) to reflect what feels right for you -- something that makes you feel that living as you are inside is okay.

Yes,i feel i enjoy every aspect of what i am,who i am,and what i do.I was born both sex,s yes,which the way i was born is extremely rare! I am masculine,yet have a femineness.Yet i actualy have the sexual organs to proove what i am.You see,i have records from docters and scientists who are just amazed on how my gene,s and DNA with genetics are modified.Mutated you can say within all the chromozones.They think that this is a evalutionary jump to a more stonger,more adaptive and more built latter to a new species for this present time and beyond.In all of these studys,i felt like a lab rat,being pronged and poked at because my genes have trippled,but with no side affects.I dont get sick at all,i hadnt been sick for 5 years.My ammune system is 10 times more stronger then the average person! My DNA and genes alinement have shown that theyre complex and trippled,unlike anything ever seen in history.Science in the studys of my own DNA and chromozone line up has been baffling to science itself.All i can say that God has told me that none will match up to me in these days and future,and none will be the like,or come close to what i am and why he created me in the first place.I know its because God has a purpouse for me.I usualy just live on in a normal life,a everyday normal life and not worry what people think of me when they do see my masculine stature.Infact,i get off on how people react to me,seeing that i look like a barbain warrior,yet see that im kind and loving and gentle.ThankX though for your insite,i appreciate it soo much,it helped me think a bit..*hugs*

not this pic again xD omg thats long comment

XD i know! Well,it did screw on my head strait on what he had to say,and i know its the truth and i do except it.Life has its odd ways,yet life works itself out. :)

Hehe i added this also to my page! well,you saw hehe,your sooo lovey hon,dont feel that way about yourself! Your the most beautiful creature i ever met,and im sooo lucky to have a person and creature like you,because i know for a fact that no one is like you,sooo kind,so generis,gentle and loving,and you have a ability no one has,to love everyone,despite thier looks,thier acts and color.You love all,admire that from you! And please dont be saying them horrible things,like saying your going to cut yourself for attention! Please,its better not to...cutting yourself only hurts me more..your worth more then anyone i seen...your my life,my world,i love you forver,my love and lover! *holds you*

Your right love,its been years since i actualy did cut myself.I got over that a long time ago,and will not ever do that.Its just how i felt at the time.But i do get your point! *hugs & holds you* Your the best ever!

I dont want you to be harmed,and worse is to see your own self harm yourself! *holds you* I know you know that,so im not worried.
*holds you*

*Holds you also*