
Tell me when it's over so I can start caring again.
So here's a crappy sketch. And before someone says: "It's not crappy, it's better than anything I could do." please allow me to say, it is a crappy sketch because that's what it is.
There's been a lack of real submissions from me. The meme I posted and then did myself doesn't count because I say so. Neither does 'Darkened Skys' because I was just being emo, and also because I said so. Nor does that 'streaming' submission and the music submission.
Hell, I'll skip to where I'm getting at. I don't think I tried since Shadows Bane Page three was posted. And that was three weeks ago. I've spiraled more into a depressive state over those three, and I think it really shows in the quality of my art. But that's not saying much since I've been depressed for four years. Not that I expect anyone to care, nor do I think anyone should.
In fact I don't really think anybody will really read all of this. Most people will probably read the first few bits of each paragraph and then post: "Oh, cute sketch. I hope you finish it sometime. And yeah, life is pretty crazy sometimes. Hope it all works out for you." Then there will be the people who did read it all, or saw this part and decided to read it all so they could feel smug about it later, and will post either: "I'm sorry *huggles* Life does suck sometimes. If you wanna talk about it, or cry on somebody's shoulder, I'll be here for you. *pats back/nuzzles/fake touching that Kyte doesn't care for*" or "Quit being a whiny emo bitch. Grow some balls and deal with life." I appreciate the kindness the former presents, but I don't want to write about it or role-play it or pretend like my life is actually relevant to somebody on the internet I've never met and only knows me because I post art to a porn site. And to the latter: thanks for your advice, It's what I've been doing for quite some time, I'll tell you when it starts working out.
Now some people, and it's easy to see where they're coming from because they're absolutely right, will straight out say: "Why are you posting this on a submission where it's public? Put it in a journal so just your watchers have to ignore you." I feel like drama because I'm in a bad mood, and it's always funny to see someone rage on the internet; or to see someone go "lol, your nub", I guess trying to insinuate that I'm an idiot for posting my problems on the internet, but are really just insecure pricks who are actually also raging.
Now having read this wall of text, and I don't know why you did, please realize I don't care for comments at this particular moment. Go ahead and comment if you want, I'll still try to respond as best I can as I always do. But realize that it's most likely gonna be snarky, sarcastic, and/or outright mean as I always do.
Kyte - The Pocket Foxbunny(Still need to learn how to draw elbows and how the arm bends properly.)
There's been a lack of real submissions from me. The meme I posted and then did myself doesn't count because I say so. Neither does 'Darkened Skys' because I was just being emo, and also because I said so. Nor does that 'streaming' submission and the music submission.
Hell, I'll skip to where I'm getting at. I don't think I tried since Shadows Bane Page three was posted. And that was three weeks ago. I've spiraled more into a depressive state over those three, and I think it really shows in the quality of my art. But that's not saying much since I've been depressed for four years. Not that I expect anyone to care, nor do I think anyone should.
In fact I don't really think anybody will really read all of this. Most people will probably read the first few bits of each paragraph and then post: "Oh, cute sketch. I hope you finish it sometime. And yeah, life is pretty crazy sometimes. Hope it all works out for you." Then there will be the people who did read it all, or saw this part and decided to read it all so they could feel smug about it later, and will post either: "I'm sorry *huggles* Life does suck sometimes. If you wanna talk about it, or cry on somebody's shoulder, I'll be here for you. *pats back/nuzzles/fake touching that Kyte doesn't care for*" or "Quit being a whiny emo bitch. Grow some balls and deal with life." I appreciate the kindness the former presents, but I don't want to write about it or role-play it or pretend like my life is actually relevant to somebody on the internet I've never met and only knows me because I post art to a porn site. And to the latter: thanks for your advice, It's what I've been doing for quite some time, I'll tell you when it starts working out.
Now some people, and it's easy to see where they're coming from because they're absolutely right, will straight out say: "Why are you posting this on a submission where it's public? Put it in a journal so just your watchers have to ignore you." I feel like drama because I'm in a bad mood, and it's always funny to see someone rage on the internet; or to see someone go "lol, your nub", I guess trying to insinuate that I'm an idiot for posting my problems on the internet, but are really just insecure pricks who are actually also raging.
Now having read this wall of text, and I don't know why you did, please realize I don't care for comments at this particular moment. Go ahead and comment if you want, I'll still try to respond as best I can as I always do. But realize that it's most likely gonna be snarky, sarcastic, and/or outright mean as I always do.
Kyte - The Pocket Foxbunny(Still need to learn how to draw elbows and how the arm bends properly.)
Category Artwork (Digital) / Doodle
Species Mammal (Other)
Size 1280 x 1280px
File Size 490.2 kB
I know you said in the above that people will comment on how they are sorry and yadda yadda yadda.. But I really do know how you feel. Depression sucks. It stops you dead in your tracks, and kills whatever drive you have to accomplish anything you try and do... Now here comes the generic part, If you need someone to talk to, I am here for you. I really am. No false promises, no fake hugs. I'm here. : )
It's not false promises I don't care for (it's the internet, what would you expect?), it's the people who insist on every other post 'touching' the other person in some form or manner. I don't like touching just anybody in real life. And there's nothing I want to talk about individually to 14+ people. If there's something I want to get off my chest, I'll directly tell somebody or just post a message like this about it. Not make a spectacle of myself, and then hope that people will ask to me to shed light on the subject. I'm just saying life sucks at the moment, I hope to get over it sometime, excuses as to why I'm not pouring out art at the moment.
I completely understand. Those people who roleplay in all their posts are annoying. And life does suck quite a bit. But we can't mope around all the time (i'm not saying YOU are) Try and make the best of what you have at the moment, and if you have nothing (or feel like you have nothing) Atleast take the initiative to start working towards what you want. Also, you need not excuse your lack of recent postings. You aren't working for your watchers, so there is no need to be sorry or make excuses.
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