...am never letting go.

Drew this for my loving boyfriend .
There is so much to say about this picture....so much....but unfortunately I have no strength to put this into words. Things have been going downhill as of late, mostly regarding my mate's health. And I am concerned shitless as undoubtedly, most of you are as well. I will not go into details, because I do not like to share personal problems with anyone. I just want to show my feelings through this picture....because with words, I am weak. Love, feelings, strong feelings-wise I am absolutely weak to show them by words. I am more comfortable to portray these emotions in art. Emotions which are hard to find or rare to feel. It's hard to feel them true. And mine are.
I am sorry for everything that's had happened. And everybody who's been part of what happened (again I will not elaborate so please don't ask).

One of the most horrible feelings is when you know the one you love (let it be a lover, or a friend or a family member, whomever you think) needs help, or is in trouble, and you got that burning desire to comfort them, to be there, and you cry your heart out 'cause you're just incapable, have no alternatives or ways to get there....to be there...phisically...

I love you too much, Mush. Thank you so much for being there for me. Listening to my bitching. To my vents, my frustrations. And I am sorry that I have most of the time to spill all my rage over you. You deserve so much better treatment from everyone. I wish people could see you the way I do. I also, pray for God that He won't take you away from me...

I chose the theme to be fall, it's fall. So it should fit. The multiple color choices should just show how calm and warm the atmosphere is represented in this picture. I didn't insist in using too dark colors, or dark blue for shadows, I want to keep it all, let us call "cheery".


I love you honey. With all my heart.
Please get better soon...