♪ "Yeah, can't help it, I can't help myself
I'm falling, I'm falling to Hell
I know it's all inside my head
I don't know what to do instead
I'm drinking, I keep sinking down
I'm thinking I can't turn around
Somebody help me, I might just drown
I swear I felt something pull me down" ♪

The Lyrics are from DROWN by Jack Kays.

This piece is definitely an older one, I got it in respect for one of the saddest moments of my life. I apparently just hoarded it to myself. Though I'd love to share this rather heavy and emotional piece in hopes it reaches someone! It's okay it cry, let it out, and don't be afraid to reach out.


**TRIGGER WARNING, PERSONAL STORY, CHRONIC ILLNESS**
I was in my early twenties, fighting with my diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis. I was on a very harsh medication that was causing quite a bit of side effects and was struggling very hard. After sixth months of injections and bad reactions it was time for my MRI to see if the pain was worth it. After waiting days for my results with held breath I got the paperwork. I had ZERO new lesions. I got together with my friends and family and we had a huge celebration that weekend, the medication was painful but working and the fight had been worth it.

The next week I got a phone call, they had an error in their paperwork and had given the wrong results. I had twelve new lesions. The medication wasn't working at all. The stages of grief I had gone through from that single phone call was one of the hardest moments of my life. This is when I made one of my biggest mistakes. I didn't tell anyone. Everyone was so happy at the party, was excited for me, that I didn't have the heart to tell anyone. For a year I kept this secret by myself, lying and saying I'm okay. Locking myself away and hiding behind a mask. In fact I probably wouldn't have told anyone if a close friend hadn't taken notice of my deterioration, insisting they went with me to the doctors next time. It was during that visit that the doctor explained the situation, I still didn't have the strength to say anything. Only through seeing the pain reflected in their eyes did I realize what I had done was selfish. I robbed them of a chance to help me, to talk to me. They felt like they had failed me while in reality I didn't even let them try.

The moral of the story is, reach out if you're in pain; don't isolate yourself.. I wouldn't know where I'd be if that friend hadn't reached out to me first, so watch out for your loved ones and friends. Simply just asking if someone is alright is a powerful tool, and I challenge you all to be honest when responding.
**END**


♪ "I know that someday I'll be fine
I know that it's gonna take time" ♪

Love you all, thanks for taking the time to stop by! I'm doing much better now, so keep fighting~♥


This beautiful and emotional piece was done by ©  Xngfng95

Pheo ©  Aubrie