I wanted to make this piece come to life for a while now and it's finally here, it's so cathartic and beautiful...

I used to be at the lowest, curled up against myself, assaulted and soon intoxicated by questions, doubts and fear. I was feeling alone and worthless, that this life wasn't for me, that I never asked for being born in the first place, that it wasn't worth it. I was on the brink of falling, spent 2 years under severe depression.

Yet I rose up, a voice reached out within me, it was harsh but oh so relieving. A real slap back to reality that made me reconsider, yeah sure life is hard, people are mean, so many things are wrong but life is a beautiful chance we're given, it's too fucking easy to cry, to give up. And it requires a lot to face your demons, to ackowledge reality but once you do...

We all need an Arushi in our life, who isn't afrait to show teeth and pull us back up by the scruff of the neck when we're feeling down. This piece is shows that, how Arushi saved me, pulled me back and forged me to become what I am today. It was tough to hear, he was harsh but it's what I needed. He reignited my inner flame and I intend on growing up and shining brighter than ever each passing day :D.

Depression never really goes away you just learn how to deal with it, some episodes are harder than other but what never changes is that, no matter what happens, you're never alone. You are unique, you are beautiful and you mean a lot to your close ones who need you. Convincing yourself that you don't really matter is like feeding a cancer and letting it devour you whole. Don't do that, you have so much yet to see and do, and so much beautiful inside you to show to the world.

I'll end this description with a verse from a song I absolutely adore: Just like you by NF:

"It's the rainy days that give us love for the sun
And if it isn't, I guess I'll be fine believing it does,
Everybody falls sometimes
Just remember that that's alright
It's the lows in life that make you cherish the highs
And if isn't, I guess I'll be fine believing a lie"

Artwork by the dear  Altastria who I thank from the bottom of my heart for this

Arushi and Nishant are and belong to me

2nd and final part with Nishant retrieveing his colors :>, so powerful and beautiful again gah!