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A little something outside the recovery series, since I had a little lapse about a week ago with thoughts.
"I don't wanna die alone
I don't wanna live forsaken
I refuse to let this go
Because my soul is breaking
I don't wanna let you know
That my heart is just so jaded
I refuse to let it show
I refuse to let it go
Wake me up when this is over
I'm tired of living life like it's a dream
Please wake me up when it's all over
I'm tired of living right here in between
I refuse"
Sometimes you see something, hear something, do, eat, smell, something, and it triggers something inside. You thought you buried it, or you made your peace, only to realize you didn't. And you feel it all over again.
I thought I was nearly out of recovery, that I dealt with the bulk of my emotions towards my last relationship, and relationships in general. But the random mention of something, and the floodgates broke. All I could think of was my last break up, all my past relationships. The memories of closeness, and the longing for that feeling once more. The doubts. The questioning. The hopelessness. Nearly accepting the apathetic view that broke through. It was hard to push back, but the part that helped most was just to reach out and talk about what was bothering me, no vagueness or sidestepping things. I love my friends, and I dunno what I'd do without them in my life.
For the piece, I wanted to show the flood of memories, and in a way you see them but can't interact or change them. And each of those is a real memory, most based on real photos.
I Refuse by 5FDP (song link)
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