i've decided to start a new challenge
but i won't make arts in any specific order, in a specific month or on a specific day
when i was doing such challenge last time, I burned out kinda quickly, because although it was an interesting experience, i had opportunity to use my creativity & i was practising time management, it also took a bit of fun from drawing
I just wanted to make it on time and now i see that some ideas were a bit random, some could be drawn better etc.
but that was a good start, at least i know that such schedule of working isn't for me
now I'll draw whatever I want, depending on the idea, inspiration, time etc.

the theme of art above is damage
I envy people who can just be themselves, use their skills, potential, meet others, have fun, talk, get to know new people and new things, participate in events
people who are helpful, valuable and they know about it
they know they do what they can, accept their weaknesses, know their limits and just enjoy whatever they get
they can regenerate energy by fulfilling their needs, they can talk directly about what is in their head, because they know that they have the right

and I can't do all of that
because I'm constantly afraid that I'll hurt others
that they will hurt me
as soon as I lose my vigilance
I have to be vigilant to get the impression that this increases my sense of security
I can't show some of my features, because i can't risk losing this safety
because of that I keep thinking
I try to predict everything, prepare for everything, have every possible scenario in mind
but it doesn't give me that safety i strive for
in fact, i'm even more scared, tired and damaged
because being always prepared requires a lot of energy that i don't really have

good luck to those who decide to read the whole background

theme: https://youtu.be/cf8PNTBTJZU?list=P.....pOgluK7dUEsRD0

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oc belongs to me
challenge - https://www.instagram.com/p/CTqgnJ2ITW9/
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