TW: DEATH MENTION
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the doc was wrong about the timing, but not about the prognosis
it took a little less than a week, so a bit more than 48 hours.
it is what it is, you know. at the end she didn't remember anything but her name, but I think she atleast knew or felt like she was around people who loved her.

it's tough with dementia. my (dad's side) grandfather was 92 when he passed, but he was still clear of mind. He knew what was happening, and he told us it was his time to go. i helped to take care of him as he was dying, i was there when he passed, i was there when they carried out his body. my grandma (mom's side) was 88, my mom asked me not to come and see her, since I would just be watching her fade away. but she asked me if I wanted to facetime to say my goodbyes, they would essentially just be for me, but I declined. since this would more than likely make gma upset since I was a face she didn't know, saying words she didn't understand. she was very scared, confused...and irritated.

It just complicates a lot of things.

my mom and sister both think I didn't do it because I'm faint hearted, and that I couldnt take the pain of watching another grandparent die; but I just didn't want to make her remaining time on earth bad? or upsetting? she was already so panicked because she didn't know what was happening. I didn't need to be apart of that.

atleast, the last time I saw her in person, I said goodbye to her, since I didn't know if I would ever see her again.

sigh


I guess they don't call it the long goodbye for nothing.