https://www.goodhousekeeping.com/ho.....n-bridge-home/

doesn't quite work with the analogy but here's a cool bridge thing I saw once on the topic of rebuilding bridges

You have such good analogies in your comics. I love that final line "I deserve to be here.. I get that now". I finally learned to love myself just a few years ago. Always thought I was a mistake and that I'm not supposed to be here in this life. Still feel that way sometimes but I finally love myself.

I've been angry pretty much my entire life. Not knowing how to feel anything else. A lot of people in my past knew me as "that angry guy" without ever knowing why. I stopped being that person to others soon after I started loving myself but there are always going to be people who only know that other version of me. Same goes for everyone. All we can do is do our best to control our pain so it doesn't come out in a negative manner. Same goes for how we view others. If someone harms us we need to remember to love them and just hope that they learn to deal with their pain and stop letting it hurt others.
Love your work. Keep it up at your own pace :)

From what I've learned I've been hurt for a very long time. I was offered a great situation but was very bad off in a variety of ways. This led to a talk where my previous experiences and past all caught up to me at once. There was so much fear released all at once, pushing me into making horrible choices, saying horrible things, and abandoning the people I care about the most.

Then when I got back from all of it. I attempted to ignore how I was feeling but it found its way out... I wasn't even aware of what was happening but it was still me. It's been really hard to grapple with it..

Therapy is helping a lot, and I'm getting my disorders under control. I've been told several times it's not my fault. That what happened to me in the past informed everything... I still need to take responsibility for it some how. Both in presenting it as best I can (baring other's sonas) when the time comes from both sides, and also healing..

I want to see the people I've hurt. I want to show them my true colors. An if I need it still, ask for help. Ask for another chance with who they thought I was after speaking to me online. Cause what they got in real life, was a very poor representation... followed by just raw emotion given a chance to message them afterwards.

You recognize what caused all that negative energy you built up to come out in an unhealthy manner. You're ready to make amends because you honestly want to fix your mistakes. You're learning from your mistakes and taking responsibility for them. If more people did as you are doing now the world would be an amazing place to live. Far too many people let their fears control them and allow bad situations to become worse. You're being very brave and doing what you know will improve your life and help others involved in it. You're amazing and I'm happy for you that you choose to work for your happiness. Keep it up. No matter how scary things get know that whatever effort you put in will be worth it even if the results aren't what you may expect.

Unfortunately I can't make amends atm. I had some mental disorder stuff kick in for first time and ever since I've been trying to grapple with it. In particular we were asked for time but one in our system kept poking when we were unaware.

I hope we can make amends when the time comes but for now I really need to work on having everything under control. A lot was done that I thought I was incapable of, and I've been told as much from others... that wasn't me x.x

And if you stop believing in yourself, you've got people both here and around you that believe in you. There's no denying that.