To expound more since I can talk longer here.

BPD and DID have ripped my life apart in interesting ways, on one hand its been very helpful to talk to my past selves and alters. On the other its been very debilitating, I'm finding it hard to focus on work even outside of my ADHD. Specially when I'm tired or experiencing a low. I've been able to ground, but it still messes me up heavily.

I've been talking back and forth with Raina, the one who holds our biggest traumas that happened to us as a teen. An right now she wants to focus on this. I left her and 2 other me's alone for a very long time, getting them up to date on everything itself has taken awhile. We're all seeking integration and to just become one whole person. No more splitting off after a trauma, no more running. I want to start living properly.