Just a little update:

After coming back home from seeing grandma I have keep communication with my mom everyday to check how is doing, at first she told me grandma was strong and happy but she is getting weak again and refusing to eat, she may be hospitalized again for her well being.


I was planning on getting back on October-November but I kinda wanna go back sooner because I am afraid she won’t last longer…. I hate to be this negative but I feel hopeless.

Tomorrow is my birthday and won’t be celebrating at all, today I will visit a friend who wants to have dinner and drink together as a small celebration but I am afraid I will be crying all the time, I hate that, feeling so vulnerable and awful.

Just wanted to vent a bit, sorry for giving negativity, have been busy with my niece until we find a daycare but everywhere is full. I just want to have a normal schedule for drawing, and a better mental health because I feel so blocked and unmotivated.