I've passed the qualifying exam. There are still six months left before the pre-graduate practice.
I've already burned out with 2 exams in 2 weeks. When do I have to find time to sleep?

I remember how inspired when I was in the 1st year, how I burned with my profession this easter, what difficulties I faced during my studies and how much it pushed me to move and develop further. But now... The closer I get to graduation, I realize the more manipulationsthe magnitude of responsibility for my actions and manipulations with the lives of patients. Considering the country where I live and the corresponding awful attitude towards medical personal, the abolition of covid payments and benefits, work for pennies, military service and the situation in the world... Disgusting, my arms come down.

In the process of drawing sketch, I remembered how naive I was in the 1st year, how I hardened and took some moments to almost the middle of the 3rd. I still don't understand some of the subtleties of the profession: is a person unconscious, pulse and breathing, do cardiopulmonary resuscitation or pass by? There are 2 chairs - both with peaks and with dicks, because if anything, I can be sued in both cases. Everything remains on my conscience, and the small cemetery will be replenished.

I became more confident and cynical. On buses, I can already notice various chronic diseases in the elderly.

Thank you for reading this little passage from my life, I hope I conveyed my thoughts correctly. Have a goood day <3