dont know whats wrong with me the past several months,but i know something isnt right
i lack the ability to perceive or understand what is missing or inflicting these feelings really,but i know they are present.
some are external,but i cannot control,some others are internal,but i cannot change despite my best efforts,still more simply feel unknowable to me,hopefully at least some of these will resolve and allow me being to heal in some manner.

-this is a vent art,there is no greater meaning behind it,im probably ok and will probably be fine,im not in any current danger or anything,i just feel off like theres holes in me and and i lack the ability to understand what they are which keeps me from really being able to do much about it,though these things could very well be imagined,ontop of feelings of obligation and heavy burdens that i dont have much choice about,i generally dont much talk about such things but wanted to let it out a bit to try and help.feel free to ignore this as the act of making this in and of itself was the reason i did,rather than trying to say anything about myself-