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Okay, This Holiday season has been one long and brutal nightmare for me. Hell, this 30th year of my life (and the beginning of my 31st) has been a real test of my resolve, my will to live. Even with the great friends i have ( mostly on line, but in the real world as well) I often felt terribly alone. That feeling intensified during this dark and terrible time, with the sudden passing of my uncle.
He died alone... and that is my greatest fear.
But I found that he, indeed did have friends and full life. I would have liked to show him this picture. Knowing how much i really dislike children, he would have laughed his ass off.
That's me, as Santa Claus. It's been extremely hard to carry this deep and profound sense of anger, despair and loss inside, while putting on a jolly face for children. Hearing their laughter made me want to die a little inside each time I heard it. The pleas from Those little ones who believed in Santa and only wanted their mommy, their daddy or their other lost loved ones back from the dead for Christmas tore my soul apart.
I' am posting this because he would have liked me to.
anyhow that's the Toys "R" Us mascot Geoffrey. (or at least his latest incarnation.)
Even though i could not molest or get steamy with the Giraffe or any of the stud Dad's that came in and out of the stores. Well lets just say Santa knows all and sees all and he'd like some thick candy canes please!
Heh i wish my own Santa would come down my chimney and be my present. heh
so enjoy this rare once and a life time occasion, Me, pretending to like and enjoy Xmas.
He died alone... and that is my greatest fear.
But I found that he, indeed did have friends and full life. I would have liked to show him this picture. Knowing how much i really dislike children, he would have laughed his ass off.
That's me, as Santa Claus. It's been extremely hard to carry this deep and profound sense of anger, despair and loss inside, while putting on a jolly face for children. Hearing their laughter made me want to die a little inside each time I heard it. The pleas from Those little ones who believed in Santa and only wanted their mommy, their daddy or their other lost loved ones back from the dead for Christmas tore my soul apart.
I' am posting this because he would have liked me to.
anyhow that's the Toys "R" Us mascot Geoffrey. (or at least his latest incarnation.)
Even though i could not molest or get steamy with the Giraffe or any of the stud Dad's that came in and out of the stores. Well lets just say Santa knows all and sees all and he'd like some thick candy canes please!
Heh i wish my own Santa would come down my chimney and be my present. heh
so enjoy this rare once and a life time occasion, Me, pretending to like and enjoy Xmas.
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Sorry about your loss, I know what it's like to loose a loved one who's close to you. I lost my grandfather last November due to cancer. I literally for the last 30 minutes of his life watched him die. He had lost the ability to speak, and by that morning he was already half gone. It was a heart wrenching experience.
Sometimes working is the only way to make you feel happy and mask what hurts.
Though I'm not going through what you are going through I can tell you getting fired from my job on Christmas week felt like somebody had taken a jackhammer to my heart pounding it into the ground.
I'm doing ok now I guess but it still hurts me that a corporation shows just how Grinchy they really are when you don't do things perfectly.
Anyway,
You just have to hang in there and be lucky you've got what you've got.
I now have to go get help from my local Interfaith to see what is going wrong in jobs for me so 2011 is going to be a year of discovery for me because I can't keep doing the same thing over again.
While I'm at it I just want you to know my brother who I love a lot broke up with his fiancee a couple weeks before Christmas and they were engaged to be married so what I'm saying is sometimes in life the work you have is what at least brings a temporary smile to your face or at least some humor to your day.
Even if you cannot grasp what happened to your Uncle remember what I've told you of be lucky you can at least work to stave off the pain you feel.
You could be me or my brother right now so count your blessings Skye.
Though I'm not going through what you are going through I can tell you getting fired from my job on Christmas week felt like somebody had taken a jackhammer to my heart pounding it into the ground.
I'm doing ok now I guess but it still hurts me that a corporation shows just how Grinchy they really are when you don't do things perfectly.
Anyway,
You just have to hang in there and be lucky you've got what you've got.
I now have to go get help from my local Interfaith to see what is going wrong in jobs for me so 2011 is going to be a year of discovery for me because I can't keep doing the same thing over again.
While I'm at it I just want you to know my brother who I love a lot broke up with his fiancee a couple weeks before Christmas and they were engaged to be married so what I'm saying is sometimes in life the work you have is what at least brings a temporary smile to your face or at least some humor to your day.
Even if you cannot grasp what happened to your Uncle remember what I've told you of be lucky you can at least work to stave off the pain you feel.
You could be me or my brother right now so count your blessings Skye.
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