had a real bad episode the other week and sketched this out. could do the concept a lot better but eh. consider it part of the charm.

feeling better now but i hate wearing out the same tired path, the same old habits whenever things even get slightly bad for me. like i hate having to have to stop myself and consciously think "do i want to be in this situation? no? ok then we can just Leave, who gives a shit"

i've started seeing a new therapist lately and they are GREAT. definitely confirmed i have PTSD and more dissociation/amnesia than i thought i did which. is a lot to process. getting there, slowly but surely.