As I remember I drew these one while waited for my queue to doctop on blood drip from the viene for covid test
I nearly passed out 2 times of it, because I can't handle such pain and I just hate blood in general..
I finalized drawing about a month later while was in a mental hospital, I felt empty because of "country A decided to attacc country B"

Original Idea:
Draw myself sittin in the hals filled with peoples of hospital
but in the mental hospital (month later) I suddenly realized that I've never seen my dad, and I have no idea what's his name, so I edited the drawing heavilly to fit a new plot.