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Once upon a time, when I was a little Ellie*, I thought it would be totally cute to pose for an alternative porn site and get lots of internet fame and some delicious moolahs. I had several advantages that other dumb sluts don't have- a professional photographer, a natural set, pro makeup and hair, all that stuff! And at first, life was wonderful. I felt better about myself and my sets recieved glorious praise! But then, because I had signed these pictures over to the internet and anyone could view them, naturally, comments that weren't asskissing came in, too. Sometimes very mean comments that made me cry and helpful, critiquing comments that I took badly, because I was a little pisser.
Eventually, Little Ellie grew up a little, and left her camwhore days behind, and took on artistic projects that validated her sense of self and portrayed her as an person of value. Sometimes they were nude, usually they are not. Either way, they made Little Ellie feel great and she remembered her Suicide Girls phase as sort of an embarrassing hiccup.
Unfortunately, SG had not forgotten Ellie, and there those embarrassing, trashy photos lurking out there on the internet, waiting to be discovered by fiances and fathers and brothers and my son, hiding on ametuer porn sites and private hard drives all over the internet. Once you do something stupid and post it on the interent, it's there FOREVER.
FOREVER
FOREVER
FOREVER
* 18, just finished my freshman year of college, and about as dumb as a box of rocks. :D
Eventually, Little Ellie grew up a little, and left her camwhore days behind, and took on artistic projects that validated her sense of self and portrayed her as an person of value. Sometimes they were nude, usually they are not. Either way, they made Little Ellie feel great and she remembered her Suicide Girls phase as sort of an embarrassing hiccup.
Unfortunately, SG had not forgotten Ellie, and there those embarrassing, trashy photos lurking out there on the internet, waiting to be discovered by fiances and fathers and brothers and my son, hiding on ametuer porn sites and private hard drives all over the internet. Once you do something stupid and post it on the interent, it's there FOREVER.
FOREVER
FOREVER
FOREVER
* 18, just finished my freshman year of college, and about as dumb as a box of rocks. :D
Category Artwork (Traditional) / Comics
Species Turtle / Tortoise
Size 931 x 1280px
File Size 270.4 kB
lmao, awwww
I like the style this was in.
Also, are the kitty and bat borders hand drawn, or is there some goth marker stamp set I am not aware of? [the varying borders thing is actually pretty neat looking]
Also, also: why would your photos "not really belong on this site"? [if that's a real comment, anyway]
I like the style this was in.
Also, are the kitty and bat borders hand drawn, or is there some goth marker stamp set I am not aware of? [the varying borders thing is actually pretty neat looking]
Also, also: why would your photos "not really belong on this site"? [if that's a real comment, anyway]
Hand drawn borders. Killed my 1.0 micron pen. :D
A few people thought I, being a hefty girl and all, did not belong on the site and voiced their opinion of it. Still others thought I was not tattooed enough. One gentleman described me as looking too wholesome and too much like a "girl next door". That sort of thing. C:
A few people thought I, being a hefty girl and all, did not belong on the site and voiced their opinion of it. Still others thought I was not tattooed enough. One gentleman described me as looking too wholesome and too much like a "girl next door". That sort of thing. C:
lmao, what. It's ALT PORN not "I look like a quilt of my childhood interests" porn. The last one is the most hilarious. I mean, not shocked to hear the haters about weight, 'cause it IS the internet and there are plenty of dumbfucks who think the only thing that is attractive is being supar skinny [and not in a "this is what I personally politely and quietly enjoy" way, but... well... the internet way we all know and love.] but... too wholesome? I don't know, what was he expecting? I can't wrap my head around that one, except to picture a girl in granny glasses with knitting as part of a set but that actually sounds a little cute, so... I'm at a loss. X)
...Actually I did have one with knitting. >< Before it was cool. And I am supposed to wear glasses. And they have thick black rims! :c
I'm not covered in tattoos- I have two big ones and two littler ones, and one nostril piercing, and my hair is not in dreadlocks. And I think his main criticism was, "This girl does not look like she wants to stab her stiletto heel up my rectum, she just looks like a nice girl you'd expect to see wearing a yellow printed sundress and cardigan, helping her grandma put up the peaches." lol.
I'm not covered in tattoos- I have two big ones and two littler ones, and one nostril piercing, and my hair is not in dreadlocks. And I think his main criticism was, "This girl does not look like she wants to stab her stiletto heel up my rectum, she just looks like a nice girl you'd expect to see wearing a yellow printed sundress and cardigan, helping her grandma put up the peaches." lol.
Ugh. Totally hate the "you're pretty, why don't you have some self respect" comment. I don't think anything demeans us unless we FEEL demeaned. I can't tell you how many times I've had men (mostly men) tell me that they dont get why I'd demean myself with the work I'm doing, or why I have so little self respect that blablabla. I'm not demeaned because I dont feel demeaned. I'm not cheating on Jon because neither of us feel it's cheating. And people who shove their own damn values on you just because they disapprove are nothing but assholes.
Obvi you don't like your pics being up. And that's your right.
But if you did, and if you still felt there was nothing wrong with it, I'd be the first one to tell you "you go girl, do you" or something equally cliche but extremely heartfelt.
Obvi you don't like your pics being up. And that's your right.
But if you did, and if you still felt there was nothing wrong with it, I'd be the first one to tell you "you go girl, do you" or something equally cliche but extremely heartfelt.
Oh, if I had been paid fairly, or kept the rights to my images, or any of that good stuff, it would be a little different. I didn't do porn because I wanted to do porn, I did it because I thought that if other people were jacking off to me, I'd learn to love myself too, when really I had to learn to love all of me, (since I'm already pretty well obsessed with my looks, lol.) like how smart and brave and strong and shit I am.
I totally agree generally with the self respect thing, USUALLY. When it's beyond obvious that camwhores are just doing it for attention, then it's something they'll regret later and they're usually not mature enough to deal with the repurcussions of their actions.
I totally agree generally with the self respect thing, USUALLY. When it's beyond obvious that camwhores are just doing it for attention, then it's something they'll regret later and they're usually not mature enough to deal with the repurcussions of their actions.
they try to impress upon us their Superego's
As I stated above, the few topless pics (2, if I remeember right) were private purchases to trusted friends, and hell, my husband was the photographer! It was my choice, rather than just asking flat out for money"Have some boobies! :D" after all, what guy would say no? XD
And my husband didn't care, He didn't care, then I thought it was cool.
But thats because I don't have some superego on me telling me "forshame"
But I totally agree, people ought to stop trying to impress upon us THEIR values.
:| /ramble
As I stated above, the few topless pics (2, if I remeember right) were private purchases to trusted friends, and hell, my husband was the photographer! It was my choice, rather than just asking flat out for money"Have some boobies! :D" after all, what guy would say no? XD
And my husband didn't care, He didn't care, then I thought it was cool.
But thats because I don't have some superego on me telling me "forshame"
But I totally agree, people ought to stop trying to impress upon us THEIR values.
:| /ramble
It's not a BAD idea, per se! It really depends of your motivations for doing it. One thing to keep in mind is that it's permanent- even if you get the initial website to take the pictures down, people will save and redistribute it forever. So if you change your mind, too bad. And people will approach you on the street, that can be a little startling if you're not ready for it.
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