I realize that I just have too much in common with the fandom, and there's so much I miss about it. I think being overwhelmed by it is what made me avoid it, but there's parts of myself I miss even more. sparkle dogs and graphic furry gore are big parts of me, as an artist, and as my own person. I don't want to feel like this whole art thing is a performance ever again, because now I know, it isn't. I felt like I left the fandom for much longer than I told anyone, because I just stopped logging in half the time. Then, not at all. I needed that break to test some things out.

However, I'm not going to go obsessive mode like I have in the past. I finally have a life outside of the fandom and I can make art unrelated to the fandom. So... That's what I'm gonna do.
All my non-explicit furry stuff will return right here. I disabled the freakfur account because It was disingenuous to my nature. I like fun! I like cringe culture! I'm not a mass producer of porn! I can draw things outside of that, and drawing doesn't have to be for money to be worthwhile (although... Since I'm in college now, making a little money off of art isn't so bad.) But I used to be in a situation where the money I made from furry art was the only money my household would have... And recently, my new home was hit with a huge financial blunder as well. But... I'm realizing that a lot has changed with in me, and a lot is changing around me. Mostly for the better, and I want to change with it without losing myself. I lost myself when the terrible things in life piled up and my one escape, furry art, became a pit of my own mistakes and overdue work or payments. It didn't help that I had practically no sfw commissions to be proud of. The things I really liked never saw the light of day at that rate.

But... Enough of that! I'm myself again, for the most part. I'm nearing the light at the end of the tunnel and I hope to draw lots of things, both in and out of the fandom. I also am not going to be so desperate to appeal to adult audiences, either. Porn is cool, I still draw it fit myself, but I don't want it to be all I'm seen for. I think nsfw, if not non-sexual nudity or gore, will be kept personal and probably not posted. If it is, it's not gonna get mentioned here... Although my characters might be familiar.

That's it! That's the end of my funny little rant! Asmo is back and I'm doing okay! I did this bear truesona sketch of myself in twelve minutes just to post this! Baja blast