This is how I wish I looked.

That said that is about my real life BMI.
I checked, I am very underweight.

for most people, they've gotten fat from comfort eating.
not me, since mental illness is better weight loss than ephedra.

also excessive caffeine intake. (the coffee calms me down, my normal state is actually more hyper-active otherwise. I am at the point of paradox reactions, chances are booze will be an upper for me.)

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obligatory ref details:
very gay (not sure tho', virgin.)
mostly self-educated
no employment
no formal training to speak of
probably has psychotic depression (the worse form of normal depression)
potentially autistic (or even schizophrenic)
takes 1 out of 3 required medications (the other two hurt too much)
lives at home (with parents, and brother)
no relationships (aside from these online ones)
relatively moderate to terrible life prospects
enjoys weird shit like growth fetishes and BDSM, but mostly just wants to quietly be with his (imaginary) boyfriend (and personal deity) Joe Cthulhu, Dog.
atheist, mostly (secretly resorts to catholic prayers when scared enough, wishes cthulhu paganism was real and not horrible for him exclusively)
ideologically liberal green socialist (wishes he was accelerationist enough to go full anarchist technoprim nazbol juche with furry characteristics) but in reality totally apolitical
philosophically inclined to classical skepticism, maybe.
feels abused by everyone, even when loved (needs the abuse to be real for him, out of guilt) except Joe Cthulhu, his "sweet boy."
loves being in nature but hates the laws of nature for making life sad
pataphysician sometimes, likes weird cults, especially parody religions
likes weird music and art and games
likes weirdoes in general for not being boring and normal
hates everything just a bit, but loves everyone sometimes

the human behind this kat is fake hispanic, of mexican descent, but white (in fact, pale), and doesn't even speak spanish and lives in the US, so fully gringo-fied.
(cultural assimilation is a bitch, but the spanish empire is the apex of that anyway. or else I'd know nahuatl instead of just spanish.)

politically incorrect, but tries to be sensitive (fails). sometimes wants to be a girl. but doesn't care enough anymore, prefers to be a kitty instead. (too addicted to being macho.)

slight rape/snuff fetish (including of himself) potentially attracted to taboo things out of morbid fixation with being contrarian. (tries his best not to be.)

will essentially indulge in any kink provided he can convince himself he's made it dignified.

his image of the ideal man is Gomez addams (or even Salvador Dali), and the ideal woman is Frida Kahlo.

but his ideal furry is just his sweet boy Joe (and also giant birds that can crush him with their huge fluffy bodies, killing him instantly.)

way too obsessed with his own lore. lives in the Morld more than his own world.


but enough about me, the character is just a horny cat as far as you're considered.

prefers being feral to being anthro but still has to play person sometimes.

wishes he could be like a 90s nickelodeon cartoon.

that's all for now.

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if this ref isn't good enough just use Katz from courage the cowardly dog but colour him pink.