~Take a moment remind yourself to
Take a moment and find yourself
Take a moment to ask yourself if
This is how we fall apart?
But it's not, but it's not, but it's not, but it's not, but it's not
It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay
You've got nothing, got nothing, got nothing, got nothing to fear
I'm here, I'm here, I'm here~

These past months have been a real awakening phrase for me.
As Theo watches the dark, stars filled night, he thinks about all that has changed in his life. With this new change brings new heartache and adjustments that don't have a clear black and white solution. From losing his best friend and lover to once again his heart being stabbed, he grown tired and on the verge of giving up on a lonesome night but instead on such a beautiful night, he finds himself in a open field once again. His mind was filled with many doubts and worries, wondering where he went wrong in situations where he found himself being lied to or question his self-worth once more. Though normally not best alone to his thoughts, sometimes you need to tackle these thoughts head-on to yourself in peace to find the bright side of things, even during a dark night, because even the night has a light. That what he will always remind himself for a better tomorrow.

This beautiful peace was done by  -Cuty awhile back who captured this feeling so perfectly. I will admit, a lot has changed but yet a lot seems to not have changed, if that makes sense, on a emotional level.
It was the same challenges but just in different forms and like before, this was exhausting, being the better person all the time was tiring and motivation to do anything was zero. But i know things been vastly improving and you have to keep that up. You need that time and space to clear your mind from all the noise that collects in your head and give yourself a break. One night won't resolve everything, but a it a hell of a good start that i don't regret starting.