In the last month, my condition has almost stably adhered to such a schedule - during the day, when it is light and bright around, I enjoy life, listen to cheerful music, and communicate with my friends at the university. In general, I am full of energy and passion for life
But as soon as night and darkness come, I am relentlessly drawn to melancholy. I sit in the dark, listening to sadly calm music (in recent days it's His Theme and Reunited by Toby Fox, undertale music means a lot to me, as well as Love is Gone - Acoustic by SLANDER, Through The Eyes Of A Child by AURORA, or here is Unity (Acoustic) by SAPPHIRE, whose lyrics you can see in this sketch). This state simultaneously causes me nagging pain and for some reason a pleasant sadness, I plunge into a trance, do not want to do anything and knowing that, most likely, no one will interrupt me, because my family goes to bed and she is not up to me, but I, enveloped in darkness, I can do and think anything. I won't say what's on my mind, but don't worry, I won't do anything to myself that causes me physical pain
Now night has come again for me (more precisely, evening, but the darkness is already such that I take it for the night). And again I plunged into this state, ready to burst into tears as if from nothing. I came up with the idea to make this sketch just... Out of a desire to capture my emotions. The work on the motions never goes beyond a monochromatic sketch, because while drawing I get distracted and already in a different mood. And I don't want that. I guess... At night, I just want to engage in slow self-destruction, while during the day I can be the funniest and silliest person on earth