I wrote this on a dark depressing night on the verge of suicide and self mutililation

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Here I am writing in this dark empty den of mine looking back on my sorry existance, was any of it worth it? What have I done with my life? What will i do with it?? I cant take this much longer..... Here alone in the darkness slipping closer to oblivion every waking moment Eternal sleep seems like a godsend at the moment. Here I am alone like i have been for the last 16 sorry years of my life.....*sighs* Just in my room reminescing about my life. trying to cry.... trying not to self inflict...I hope that that never happens again.... but it made me forget for a little while and i was greatful but after a while that didnt help either....so i drank and smoked....... after a whiel that didnt do anything either....so here i am lonley and pondering what i am to do to alieviate the lonliness...... what astounds me is ive only been alive for 16 years and ive lost the ability to cry, i dont have anymore tears... I feel this unbearable despair in my heart and even now i cannot cry.... i want to. I find my center in solitude, yet lose my sanity in it.......And yet as i ponder whats to come ive seemed to have lost intrest in liveing without someone to live it with, life to me right now is a temporary setback to the final liberation of death.... Im trying my hardest not to just hang myself right now..... so i think that ill sleep at least my dreams can comfort me.....unless the nightmares come back*begins to weep silently in his dark room* I hope that tommorow looks up and that the goddess is with me....