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Haw haw, ponder the orb. Yeah, get it out of your system. I know.
I don't really post vent art or negative/self-reflective pieces on here often at all, but honestly... I've been drawing more of them recently and I'd like to think they're a little interesting. I'd also like to think that someone will relate and that maybe I won't seem like such an unreachable figure anymore, or like a hermit who doesn't want to be bothered.
So let's just go into it raw.
This one's imagery might be a bit abstract, but for those interested in what it means, mouse over:
It's a feeling I've been having on and off for several years. In so many things in life (but most noticeably in art), there are those people who simply have "it". Something about their work draws you to them, and keeps you glued. It's something I've always wanted for myself, and always envied in other artists. It's not a matter of skill; a lot of beginner-intermediate artists have "it". I don't think I do. Maybe "it" is ill-defined; maybe I simply respond to certain styles; maybe it's multiple different things that don't all have to be there for the attraction to happen. All I know is I want to make what those people make. I want to feel as happy, passionate and comfortable as their art tells me they are. I want that X factor, and I can't get it. Did I lose it at some point, or did I never have it at all? Either way, until I find it, it's like something is always going to be missing from my work. I know all I draw is smut and dumb little watercolours on a website for furries. I don't care. I just want to feel like I've got "it".
I'm okay at the time of posting; this is a feeling that comes and goes, and the pic was drawn some weeks back. But I still thought I'd share.
Enjoy.
I don't really post vent art or negative/self-reflective pieces on here often at all, but honestly... I've been drawing more of them recently and I'd like to think they're a little interesting. I'd also like to think that someone will relate and that maybe I won't seem like such an unreachable figure anymore, or like a hermit who doesn't want to be bothered.
So let's just go into it raw.
This one's imagery might be a bit abstract, but for those interested in what it means, mouse over:
It's a feeling I've been having on and off for several years. In so many things in life (but most noticeably in art), there are those people who simply have "it". Something about their work draws you to them, and keeps you glued. It's something I've always wanted for myself, and always envied in other artists. It's not a matter of skill; a lot of beginner-intermediate artists have "it". I don't think I do. Maybe "it" is ill-defined; maybe I simply respond to certain styles; maybe it's multiple different things that don't all have to be there for the attraction to happen. All I know is I want to make what those people make. I want to feel as happy, passionate and comfortable as their art tells me they are. I want that X factor, and I can't get it. Did I lose it at some point, or did I never have it at all? Either way, until I find it, it's like something is always going to be missing from my work. I know all I draw is smut and dumb little watercolours on a website for furries. I don't care. I just want to feel like I've got "it".
I'm okay at the time of posting; this is a feeling that comes and goes, and the pic was drawn some weeks back. But I still thought I'd share.
Enjoy.
Category All / General Furry Art
Species Armadillo
Size 1080 x 795px
File Size 479.5 kB
This is to some degree different, but I hope it's a verisimilitude enough.
I had similar feelings when I first arrived at uni, and seeing the talent and creativity many of my peers wielded in math at the time (which, despite popular representations, is absolutely a field where creativity is the best attribute you can have). I could work for days to come up with a proof that was 10 times as clunky, and an iota as insightful as what they'd see in an hour. And it sucked! It still does in a lot of ways. I wish I had the eye and talent to make something look so equally effortless and true. But, it's still a lot of fun! I may never contribute anything to math, but getting others even a little excited never gets old.
Can't say it for certain, since I don't really know you, but I feel like it couldn't hurt, seeing how others view what you make. For instance, you could've fooled me with this piece itself, which as an outsider to your brain, seems to be a wonderfully crafted counterexample to it's very thesis. You're much more than you give yourself credit for.
I had similar feelings when I first arrived at uni, and seeing the talent and creativity many of my peers wielded in math at the time (which, despite popular representations, is absolutely a field where creativity is the best attribute you can have). I could work for days to come up with a proof that was 10 times as clunky, and an iota as insightful as what they'd see in an hour. And it sucked! It still does in a lot of ways. I wish I had the eye and talent to make something look so equally effortless and true. But, it's still a lot of fun! I may never contribute anything to math, but getting others even a little excited never gets old.
Can't say it for certain, since I don't really know you, but I feel like it couldn't hurt, seeing how others view what you make. For instance, you could've fooled me with this piece itself, which as an outsider to your brain, seems to be a wonderfully crafted counterexample to it's very thesis. You're much more than you give yourself credit for.
I do realize it's a bit of a self-defeating piece, hahah. I've put a lot of thought into the depiction of the theme, to the point where I cared enough about the illustration as a whole to depict it "right".
I appreciate you sharing your own experience. While it's in a different field, I do think that feeling can apply to any creative endeavour. I don't fully relate since I'm not very good at in-depth math (algebra & basic graphs is as far as I went), but I can absolutely get the sense of inadequacy when someone else simply does something you already did, better, or simply does something you never could've dared.
It's hard to remember or identify our own credit when we're seeing others have far more success with seemingly less skill or effort, but I think you hit on something correct here.
Thank you for your response.
I appreciate you sharing your own experience. While it's in a different field, I do think that feeling can apply to any creative endeavour. I don't fully relate since I'm not very good at in-depth math (algebra & basic graphs is as far as I went), but I can absolutely get the sense of inadequacy when someone else simply does something you already did, better, or simply does something you never could've dared.
It's hard to remember or identify our own credit when we're seeing others have far more success with seemingly less skill or effort, but I think you hit on something correct here.
Thank you for your response.
That dedication absolutely shows. It's hard as a non-artist to imagine approaching something like this, all the small decisions that are made and manifest. But this feels very cohesive and cogent to what you describe.
And fair! Take math here to be as much a proxy for art as your past experiences can allow. In university, it's got almost nothing to do with calculations, and more to do with seeing and expressing patterns (hey, look at art creeping back in so quickly anyway). But I appreciate your sympathy on that too. Thank you for taking the time to give such a leveled response.
And fair! Take math here to be as much a proxy for art as your past experiences can allow. In university, it's got almost nothing to do with calculations, and more to do with seeing and expressing patterns (hey, look at art creeping back in so quickly anyway). But I appreciate your sympathy on that too. Thank you for taking the time to give such a leveled response.
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