Do you want to hear a tale of half a year ago? A story, or a vent, of what can never be the same? Sit down and read this sorrowful soliloquy of an old friend long gone.

Where did the idea of Ayuko start? With one artist. With one character. Their pictures inspired me, their lore beguiled me. And the moment I could interact with them, I hoped that we could be friends. Four long years, with a small leave in the middle. That was how long I was in their community. We had ups and downs, moments good and bad, but through it all, I wanted to be their friend. I wanted to be a part of their world, I wanted to be someone who could make them smile, I wanted to be there for them. But as time went on, I realized that they may not have seen me the same way. It all came to an end with a misunderstanding, a refusal to discuss, and anger at the concerns of others.

This was the last thing I ever did for them. A Christmas gift, the OC that inspired me to make Ayuko alongside her. My only income was, and still is, from stories, so I spent what I had to get this for him. To make him happy. But I was a fool, and now it is gone. Four long years of community, never to be seen again. I have to move on. I can't come to him begging to be let back. I doubt he will come back to me to right the wrongs made. So I have to move forward. Like how Ayuko grew from a side character in his OC's shadow to someone people love, I must grow out from his shadow to become my best self. If he does not want me back, I must accept it and carry on without him. I wish him no ill will, and no negative intent. His life is his to live, and I do not want him to suffer because of me.

You may not ever read this, but if you do, know this. A small part of me wishes it could be fixed. But my heart knows that one of us must act first. And it will not be me, because I want it to be you. For I cannot approach you anywhere, you must be the one to do so. The choice is yours to make, but whether you come to me or not, I will grow. I will thrive. I will rise and become something greater. What happens between us is your choice to make. Soropin.

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Mushina belongs to Soropin, check them out here: https://www.deviantart.com/soropin