
Dementia is a terrible disease. It takes the mind and slowly destroys it, robbing the once strong and independent of everything.
My mother passed away on Tuesday, struggling in the last hour of a disease that slowly destroyed her over ten years. She was only 56. Growing up, I remember who she used to be - smarter than anyone, she seemed to have a sixth sense beyond that of a typical mother. I didn't dare lie to her - she seemed to know what I was going to say before I even said it.
She raised me with a sense of morals, honesty, and a love for learning. I remember sitting on her lap, as she read me The Cat in the Hat - she taught me to read before I even entered kindergarten. It seemed whenever I had a question, she had an answer. I looked up to my mother as the source of all knowledge and love.
The hardest part was seeing her in the early stages. She began to forget...words, plans, directions...eventually she lost the ability to write, to speak, and finally to walk and eat. She struggled and fought, but eventually the disease shut everything down.
Out of everything, hummingbirds were her favorite. I'd like to think that when she passed, she finally tore free from the shadowy black that stuck to her mind and body, and finally found light and peace. I love you, mom.
My mother passed away on Tuesday, struggling in the last hour of a disease that slowly destroyed her over ten years. She was only 56. Growing up, I remember who she used to be - smarter than anyone, she seemed to have a sixth sense beyond that of a typical mother. I didn't dare lie to her - she seemed to know what I was going to say before I even said it.
She raised me with a sense of morals, honesty, and a love for learning. I remember sitting on her lap, as she read me The Cat in the Hat - she taught me to read before I even entered kindergarten. It seemed whenever I had a question, she had an answer. I looked up to my mother as the source of all knowledge and love.
The hardest part was seeing her in the early stages. She began to forget...words, plans, directions...eventually she lost the ability to write, to speak, and finally to walk and eat. She struggled and fought, but eventually the disease shut everything down.
Out of everything, hummingbirds were her favorite. I'd like to think that when she passed, she finally tore free from the shadowy black that stuck to her mind and body, and finally found light and peace. I love you, mom.
Category Artwork (Digital) / Animal related (non-anthro)
Species Avian (Other)
Size 950 x 679px
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Im very sorry you and your mother had to go thou that painful experience. Im sure that every time you see a hummingbird cross your path , Im sure your mother is that hummingbird watching and guiding you. I hope you find peace that she is no longer hurting. My condolences.
I am sorry for your loss. Your mother sounded like an amazing woman and was struck by something that took her before my time. I see my mom going the same direction just more slowly.
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This picture is beautiful, your colors are always so amazing as is your attention to detail.
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This picture is beautiful, your colors are always so amazing as is your attention to detail.
I'm sorry for your loss. I remember feeling the same way about my grandmother, but I can't imagine watching my mother go through all of that. She must be so proud of you though, with how strong you are to be able to create this image despite the pain. Its a very beautiful one.
I'm very sorry to hear of your loss. My grandmother also passed away from dementia. Near the end she slipped into a comatose state, and eventually passed. I know how difficult seeing someone you love slip away, and then waste away like that, and I'm terribly sorry anyone has to watch that happen, especially someone so nice and talented as you. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers as you work through this difficult time *hugs*
Like everyone one else, I'm sorry for the loss of your grandmother. Family is family and we love them all just the same. It always hurts to not have them around anymore. At least you knew your grandmother well, me I hardly knew her and she died when I was only 8 years old. Memories are memories and we can always remember them for who they were to us in life. Great way to remember her by with your art.
I am sorry for you going through such a terrible loss, this piece has great strength in it and within it your mother will live on as well as in your heart and beautiful memories of her and your time together.
My thoughts go to you and your family as you go through this difficult time.
Also, thank you very much for sharing.
My thoughts go to you and your family as you go through this difficult time.
Also, thank you very much for sharing.
I won't presume to say I know what you're going through, because everyone's pain is different; but I lost my grandmother to Alzheimer's ten years ago, and my mother to abdominal cancer a little over three years ago; she was 51. I do have at least some idea, and my heart goes out to you.
I WILL say I know what you're getting at with your imagery here, though. There was a pervasive feeling with my Grandmother that she just wasn't the same person any more; that somewhere inside of her, she was stuck, trapped behind this synthetic facade of the disease; or even already gone, shoved out of her body entirely, waiting for it to give out and break the link holding her, powerless, to this present world. Breaking free from the shadows is a very powerful, and very touching, metaphor.
I wish you the best; I hope you're never actually down to one random guy on the internets to talk to, but whether you are or not, this guy is certainly willing to listen. Hang in there; it does get better with time.
I WILL say I know what you're getting at with your imagery here, though. There was a pervasive feeling with my Grandmother that she just wasn't the same person any more; that somewhere inside of her, she was stuck, trapped behind this synthetic facade of the disease; or even already gone, shoved out of her body entirely, waiting for it to give out and break the link holding her, powerless, to this present world. Breaking free from the shadows is a very powerful, and very touching, metaphor.
I wish you the best; I hope you're never actually down to one random guy on the internets to talk to, but whether you are or not, this guy is certainly willing to listen. Hang in there; it does get better with time.
I have nothing but the fiercest respect for your bravery, being able to see what was happening to your mother and stay by her side. My grandmother recently died of a brain tumour, and seeing that once-sharp woman slowly lose her ability to think clearly, to follow through with her thoughts, terrified me on a deep, visceral level. I had to leave the room, because she'd had someone bring her her purse, to give me something she kept hidden there, and she'd forgotten what she was doing, and kept very slowly unzipping the coin-pocket, searching inside it, and zipping it again, and then forgetting that she'd already done it, opening it and searching again. I'm eaten with the guilt of being incapable of helping her.
I know it must have been different for you, losing your mother to that quiet haze of mental destruction, but I'm glad that you knew her well enough to understand, as well. I hope you always retain your clarity and your memories, and I hope the pain becomes easier to bear.
I know it must have been different for you, losing your mother to that quiet haze of mental destruction, but I'm glad that you knew her well enough to understand, as well. I hope you always retain your clarity and your memories, and I hope the pain becomes easier to bear.
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