Hi
I want to apologize for being quiet for some time.
I know it's not really professional of me.

I just think I made some big mistakes, and this year is one of my worst.
I thought I can handle takings a lot of commissions, while being in school, being in a relationship, trying to be social, trying to make my family proud of me, and trying to ignore that I am struggling, because of my ADHD and bad mental health.
And finally, this ended really badly for my mental health, there were a few months this year when I couldn't even touch my iPad and start drawing, my sleeping schedule was a mess, and I was always tired and stressed.

But the worst time for me was the last few months. I feel like I lost a lot because of my mistakes and because I didn't wanted to admit that I am struggling.
Now I'm trying to fix it, to back again.
But it's really hard, my mental health is still bad, I'm trying to focus on myself, to feel better, but because of that I'm less productive, and this isn't really helping my mental health, too.
I can't even lie anymore that everything is fine.
I can't run away from my struggles anymore, I can't pretend that I can handle everything.

But I am really thankful for everyone who is patient with me.
I will slowly finish all of my commissions and art trades, and after this, I will probably stop being active for some time again, just to take care of myself properly.