Więc, chodź, wyjdź ze mną na ulicę
I krzycz, to co ja krzyczę
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qoS87NQs3og

"So, come, go out with me on the street
And shout what I am shouting" more or less!

To se ne vrati!
Quick vent art, as I had an impromptu break from my meds. Don't worry, I'll get back on them very very soon! :) Do make sure to take yours if you forgot yours for the day!

But yeah jesus I do need those antidepressants just to push through, don't I? I started missing those times when I just trusted my gut, and had those years of having friends who just accepted I was constantly crying. I dunno if it felt more sincere, at that point maybe. One of them got married, and moved countries, other just... got too much into right wing stuff and eugenics for my own comfort.
But in this economy? There's no place for too dumb decisions for me, just work work work... But then again, the whirlwind of experience that was the time from being 20 to being 28 now. Oh well. Now I drink alone and not on parties. Is this more responsible? Meeting local drunks did start to make me realize: random people can be utter assholes for fuck all reasons.
Imagine: there is this very friendly black cat nearby the 24h shop. So of course, I plop down to the ground, get the cat snacks out of my bag to befriend them, they're super friendly, rub against me and all. And some random man with two Królewskie under his arm (look, I'm sorry if you like this beer, but even in my much tired veteran liver, this beer is just VILE) and he tells me I don't respect myself.
Unsurprisingly, I have more of a lasting relation with that cat now still lol. Who even was that guy??
God being alive is just weird.

At least three times I got "you must be lesbian" just because I'm not super femme and easy to talk about anything, from a cis gay man in my life. Last time was locally, at the 24h shop.
Second was also nearby that shop, and dude told me I'm unrealistic about wanting to have children with someone I love, and he can pay for alimony, after ranting about his ex boyfriends, and saying he is a "lone wolf"... so... fuck was even that conversation haha, I just told him I need to get home and thanked him for the talk. And marched off!