I have no clue as to why I'm so excited right now. It's a nice feeling until it tears me up inside by the amount of anticipation. I wonder why I feel this way today, maybe it's because of stress or anxiety whatever it may be it's an awful feeling. That rings a bell now that I've typed that. I think I may be feeling this way since this morning, it might be because everyone kept looking over at me and now that's led to this feeling. I've always dreamed of being looked at as valid and accepted but that's never happened to me.

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