
Been struggling alot mentally, I'm struggling to rest and enjoy the little free time I get because I've been feeling alot of pressure and trying to deal with my depression/stress whilst also trying to heal from so much... My best is not good enough for people nor to they really care and I've completely disconnected from being able to socialize anymore. I'm so broken and tired of people hurting me and dragging me down I've become numb, I'm always the shit friend, the stupid one, the disappointment, the "Therapist", the "not good enough", etc etc... I just can't deal with people anymore, I always try and assume the good in people but I'm quick to regret it and get hurt. I don't feel comfortable opening up to people anymore because 9 out of 10 times they'll ignore me and make it about themselves, or I just don't know what to say anymore. I've wasted so much time and stress on people that really weren't worth it and the pool of people I trust and feel comfortable around has shrunk so much in the last couple of years due to these things.
I'm trying to just focus on my art and work because it's the only thing I have that I'm good at but I've become so burned out due to some events in the past years I've been struggling to get creative and it honestly kills me inside because I used to be so excited to draw and come up with stuff. "Take a break" I hear over and over again but I can't afford that at the moment and people hound me anyway... it's really not that simple. I'm not as fast as I used to be, my work progress has slowed alot but I'm also trying to live the life I've been denied for so long and it just happens with age I guess and I wish sometimes people would be more understanding and know that they will get their work, I've been doing commission for nearly 10 years I would never risk running of with people's money on purpose.
I really wanted to just to sorta show that every artist and person has a breaking point and I've reached mine.
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In that case, your personal health is the most import thing to take care of. You are an amazing artist, but it would be a horrible thing, if you torture yourself by continue forcing yourself to deliver. You don't have to justify yourself against other. You only have to justify against yourself.
Not trying to make this about me, but I feel this so hard. I'm not sure if you've had professional help / therapy, but if not, I highly recommend it. I don't want to give you the generic advice because I'm sure you've heard it a hundred times. A therapist could provide you with insight about yourself you perhaps didn't even realize yet. I really hope you'll find some mental stability, because life is too precious to feel burned out during it. <3
It's been a hit-or-miss with doctors and therapists for me as well (so far with my current therapist, it feels like a talk I could've had with anyone, but I'm hopeful it'll change). We're all human so even some therapists might have off days or feel burned out, or their personality and drive just doesn't quite match with yours. I'm sure that eventually you'll find a passionate and motivated one who can take the time to properly treat you!
As someone who's only now starting to feel like she can function again after 3 months of being completely shit stomped with depression and anxiety, please know that you can overcome this.
Take care of your basic needs when you can, savoir the little moments of clarity when the weight lifts, and be kind to yourself when you can't.
I'm pulling for you! We're more than the sum of our output.
Take care of your basic needs when you can, savoir the little moments of clarity when the weight lifts, and be kind to yourself when you can't.
I'm pulling for you! We're more than the sum of our output.
I know this will seem kind of strange since I don't know you personally but there's a bit of advise I use whenever I'm working through a particularly tough patch myself that I think will help you. All things pass. This, too, will pass. Endure. At the end of every dark tunnel of depression and anxiety is an eventual open space with clean air and light. It may feel hard and unwinnable but you don't have to "win" you just have to survive. Take joy in the little victories. Things that seem simple or unimportant still are if they're important to *you*. It may seem harder and harder but try to take pride in your own ethics. Many people don't have any nowadays. And always remember, "This, too, will pass."
*Hugs* I know full well about people pretending to be friends and then stabbing you in the back or just pretty much think badly of you.
The only thing I can say is try surrounding yourself with what keeps you positive. Hold onto the little victories, no matter how small. I also play a lot of video games to keep me occupied.
The only thing I can say is try surrounding yourself with what keeps you positive. Hold onto the little victories, no matter how small. I also play a lot of video games to keep me occupied.
Thank you for sharing your pain with us, hun ~
The pain you're experiencing is just part of being human, along with the pain of being a professional artist.
I say professional because your work has reached the level where people are willing to pay for it, and that is no small achievement. I am barely better than a beginner, so I often hope I can achieve such a goal someday. However, this isn't about me, this is about you and your mental well-being.
Always remember, that these pains are part of the packaged deal of being an artist, and a human being. For all the joy you experience, you will experience pain, and not always in equality. You're going to get burnt no matter what you do. If you've decided to put your financial stability on your art, then come hell or high water, you gotta stick with it. You made this decision to be an artist, you chose this pain, and now you gotta keep at it. You're right; taking a break isn't an option for you because it is your livelihood in more ways than one. But like anything else, with these emotions you're experiencing, these are phases, and nothing more. This will not go on forever, even if it feels like it will.
Bringing awareness to your pain is the first step, and then understanding how to move forward despite the pain in the next step.
I'm sorry you haven't been able to find many people to open up with because carrying all that heaviness around all day would wear anybody down. Believe me, you are not the only one who feels this way, and knowing your pain isn't unique is the key to help you realize that there is already a solution somewhere. In your case, it's quite clear that you are considerably hard on yourself, and would benefit from an outsider's perspective. Just by looking at the comments here, I can see that many of your fans (myself included) really do care about you, otherwise they wouldn't have taken time out of their day just for you. Listen to what they have to say, and maybe, ever so slowwwwwwwlyyyy, learn to not be so judgmental of yourself. (I'm learning this lesson too, and I'm veeeeeeeery bad at it.)
Embrace the pains that you have chosen (art), and the ones you didn't choose but must endure anyhow (being human). Listen to what the pain is saying, and use that to move forward. It's the only way you'll ever be able to find inner peace.
The pain you're experiencing is just part of being human, along with the pain of being a professional artist.
I say professional because your work has reached the level where people are willing to pay for it, and that is no small achievement. I am barely better than a beginner, so I often hope I can achieve such a goal someday. However, this isn't about me, this is about you and your mental well-being.
Always remember, that these pains are part of the packaged deal of being an artist, and a human being. For all the joy you experience, you will experience pain, and not always in equality. You're going to get burnt no matter what you do. If you've decided to put your financial stability on your art, then come hell or high water, you gotta stick with it. You made this decision to be an artist, you chose this pain, and now you gotta keep at it. You're right; taking a break isn't an option for you because it is your livelihood in more ways than one. But like anything else, with these emotions you're experiencing, these are phases, and nothing more. This will not go on forever, even if it feels like it will.
Bringing awareness to your pain is the first step, and then understanding how to move forward despite the pain in the next step.
I'm sorry you haven't been able to find many people to open up with because carrying all that heaviness around all day would wear anybody down. Believe me, you are not the only one who feels this way, and knowing your pain isn't unique is the key to help you realize that there is already a solution somewhere. In your case, it's quite clear that you are considerably hard on yourself, and would benefit from an outsider's perspective. Just by looking at the comments here, I can see that many of your fans (myself included) really do care about you, otherwise they wouldn't have taken time out of their day just for you. Listen to what they have to say, and maybe, ever so slowwwwwwwlyyyy, learn to not be so judgmental of yourself. (I'm learning this lesson too, and I'm veeeeeeeery bad at it.)
Embrace the pains that you have chosen (art), and the ones you didn't choose but must endure anyhow (being human). Listen to what the pain is saying, and use that to move forward. It's the only way you'll ever be able to find inner peace.
Part of me feels the same way with that first part. I really don't socialize much anymore, nor seek out more friends or whatever. I too have noticed those I frequently talk to/interact with has shrunk over the years, and I'm honestly just wondering when that small pool of genuine people is gonna reach 0. I've also become more skeptical and weary with others over the years, even people I've known for a long time; it seems like I trust very few people nowadays.
I'm sure you've heard the phrase "take a break" so many times now. Honestly? Do it if you can. Step away from art, furry, people, or whatever to give yourself a chance to ground yourself and ease your mind. It can be a week, a month, several months, hell, even a year if you need to. However I do understand if art has become your only/primary source of income, given how long you've been doing it.
Idk how much this has all helped, but I hope it did; I feel like this mindset is hitting a lot of people lately, myself included.
I'm sure you've heard the phrase "take a break" so many times now. Honestly? Do it if you can. Step away from art, furry, people, or whatever to give yourself a chance to ground yourself and ease your mind. It can be a week, a month, several months, hell, even a year if you need to. However I do understand if art has become your only/primary source of income, given how long you've been doing it.
Idk how much this has all helped, but I hope it did; I feel like this mindset is hitting a lot of people lately, myself included.
Hey if you need some kind talk and support I am here on discord if you need me. I am happy to lend support and kindness you are always welcome to have talk *shares blanket* here we go. Never feel ashamed to take a break or ask for a hand we all have or will, this is a rough world lately.
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Take a break and collect yourself. Know that you do really good work, and it's always nice to see some fresh Binty art but if you need to put the brakes on it, there is no shame in that. I'm in the same boat and it's hard to stay motivated when it feels like the world is ending, but i don't think it is, and I try to keep my head up when things get rough so I hope you do the same
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Take a break and collect yourself. Know that you do really good work, and it's always nice to see some fresh Binty art but if you need to put the brakes on it, there is no shame in that. I'm in the same boat and it's hard to stay motivated when it feels like the world is ending, but i don't think it is, and I try to keep my head up when things get rough so I hope you do the same
I'm currently in therapy for what you are describing, it could be worth a shot if you wanted to try something like that.
But if you wanna reach out please do so :O
Your stuff is amazing and I'm sure if you maybe take some time to work out why you do what you like to do in the first place things might feel new again. Can feel a lil monotonous turning what is essentially a big part of your soul into a business.
But if you wanna reach out please do so :O
Your stuff is amazing and I'm sure if you maybe take some time to work out why you do what you like to do in the first place things might feel new again. Can feel a lil monotonous turning what is essentially a big part of your soul into a business.
I realize that I'm too much of a flaming wreck to offer anyone any kind of emotional support when life's being too much, but I can honestly, genuinely say that I empathize with what you've expressed here. I won't get into specifics and make it about me or anything, but... I really do get it.
Dunno if any actual therapists would agree with me on this, but after a lifetime of hit-and-miss shrinks (well, a lifetime of misses and one hit that up and died on me), I've been trying to live by a personal maxim to see how it suits me: It's Okay to Not Be Okay. Trying to force yourself to be stronger than you can be just because it's what others expect from you is as toxic and self-destructive as any other form of self-repression -- if you need to break down, give yourself some space and time to break down, and let yourself heal afterward in whatever form that needs to take. (I'm currently working on scheduling in a two-week breakdown myself, once this godawful move's finished and I can lock myself in my room with a stash of drinks and junk food and just bawl my eyes out until I feel better.)
Dunno if any actual therapists would agree with me on this, but after a lifetime of hit-and-miss shrinks (well, a lifetime of misses and one hit that up and died on me), I've been trying to live by a personal maxim to see how it suits me: It's Okay to Not Be Okay. Trying to force yourself to be stronger than you can be just because it's what others expect from you is as toxic and self-destructive as any other form of self-repression -- if you need to break down, give yourself some space and time to break down, and let yourself heal afterward in whatever form that needs to take. (I'm currently working on scheduling in a two-week breakdown myself, once this godawful move's finished and I can lock myself in my room with a stash of drinks and junk food and just bawl my eyes out until I feel better.)
I am genuinely so sorry and hope sincerely you can find some more good friends to keep close this is a constant struggle for so many and I am again so sorry you are going through it :( i know i am a rando but if i can help some way I am always somewhere easy to contact but regardless I hope things start to improve for you
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Ok, I feel like you don't have to take a break of art, but to people around you. I don't know you but judging by what you said, seems like they throw their garbage on you, if I'm right, don't take it bad, there are people who isn't aware of the damage they do sometimes. I know how difficult is to change and to make new friends but you can try it.
Honestly therapy now a days is strange, so if you want to book a season or two it's ok but be cold and feel if it helps or not, I suppose there are many.
I like your draws, transformations are good, I remember some rubber stuff you did. Nice!
Good luck
Ok, I feel like you don't have to take a break of art, but to people around you. I don't know you but judging by what you said, seems like they throw their garbage on you, if I'm right, don't take it bad, there are people who isn't aware of the damage they do sometimes. I know how difficult is to change and to make new friends but you can try it.
Honestly therapy now a days is strange, so if you want to book a season or two it's ok but be cold and feel if it helps or not, I suppose there are many.
I like your draws, transformations are good, I remember some rubber stuff you did. Nice!
Good luck
Deeply sorry you're hurting. I've also been the "therapist friend" who was turned on, the second I was perceived as not good enough. time and time again. And yes, that word "stupid" and variations of it sure gets thrown around a lot by those people does it not? Best advice, and please take this to heart.. Please distance from that toxicity and let those people suffer from there mistakes. It's better for them to learn, and it's better for you to heal. You are a beautiful, talented, nurturing soul. And it's so soooo so so okay that you're feeling this way. Nobody in their right mind could expect you to feel anything differently after what you've expressed here. I hope you find a way to rest in a way you're able to. Brightest blessing, you deserve them.
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