It took your arm away

Ow

https://youtu.be/H9cbqNajmGQ

FR though, this year hasn't been great.

I hope you find the strength to keep going.

This year is also presenting related problems.

Hate these kinda thoughts, they're human and fine but existential dread is depressing and sucky and awful

Yeah but all the art will be preserved long after we're all gone, telling the tales...

Yeah I get those morbid thoughts now and then. Not fun.

Yea... all too relatable.

How inconvenient

Hey man are you okay ahaha

At the moment!

Alright just remember to enjoy the time you have with them, the fact that the end will hurt is proof that it's meaningful

That's what I keep telling myself!

Realise the sun dosen't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world
Spinning round

I get these ever since I was young and they told me the sun will one day explode

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/288001/

haunting
still haven't found a way to completely get rid of those
I often try to keep myself busy with other stuff till I just forget

We've never really talked but you've been a big positive influence in my love of art and creativity, just wanted to say you're cool as fuck!

Mm, yeah. Every night before I go to sleep.

Usually I just have thoughts about authority and revealing people in power to be some sort of corrupt masterminds, though. Weird. But mostly the death thing.

It's not the destination, but the travel. You live and enjoy life with your loved ones while you are here, cause that won't be possible when we are gone. So shush those nihilistic thoughts and blow them away!

While true the only thing of worth to take away is to hug the people important to you while you can

Correct. So you should kill everyone beforehand

Ah whenever I get these thoughts I always just consider the alternative. That someone I love "won't" die and will have to endure this bleak and empty universe FAR beyond the point it remains at all tolerable, and without me there to try and cheer them up. @.@ That's when I'm at least a little thankful that won't ever happen.

My main existential crisis is what will happen to me once I die, because from where I stand it sure seems like everyone else has a pretty clear destination in mind even those that don't believe in any sort of afterlife still at least seem eager for the 'dreamless sleep' of nonexistence. While I'm over here just dreading life in general, since it seems increasingly incapable of maintaining a tolerable level of pain, and seriously wondering if I've done anything at all to hopefully end up in one of the better afterlives.

There are a lot of afterlives. I've heard it said that a belief in the hereafter, so common amongst humanity, implies the existence of a creator. I tend to view it through the lens of occam's razor, in that it's more likely a biological, animalistic desire to simply not die.

But I'm not afraid of dying, whatever may happen afterward. I'm afraid of growing old, withering physically and mentally in a world without anyone I've known.

Well said.

In my experience you just get used to it eventually. Maybe even transition to existential relief. I like my life but I wouldn’t want to do this shit forever anyway.

Remember, bodhisattva, the impermanence of life also means the impermanence of death, everyone you love shall also live again!

I didn't know you were into buddhism.

It has become a great comfort for me lately! Eternity is scary as shit, but a googolplex has an end, basically. It's how I stopped being terrified of the heat death of the universe.

So... I'm curious about something, and you don't have to answer because I realize the answer is necessarily irrational, but. A lot of people in this block of comments alone have mentioned a fear of cosmological forces that will happen untold billions of years from now. Can you describe that fear at all?

For me it's the fear of the end of anything and everything, the snuffing out of all possible consciousness. Not just when the earth is swallowed up by the sun, because mathematically thinking life such as ours must evolve on another planet in the cosmos. Consciousness will still continue, even if humanity dies out on our home planet without spanning the galaxy. The heat death of the universe, however, is the final entropic state of everything. No chemical reactions can occur by definition. No thought can exist. It's a fear not for myself, but for other people.

Since one of the main doctrines of Buddhism is "Permanence is an illusion" I can hold onto that. Samsara, the cycle of life and death is not eternal. You can reach Nirvana and exit that cycle. By the same token, Nirvana must not be eternal, and something beyond that can be reached to exit Nirvana. The heat death of the universe may happen, but eventually something will change. Even if it takes an impossibly long time it *will* happen.

The jitters in the middle panel reminded me of this little animation from Telepeturtle, which had a post in the comments which provided the keyword "Brain Zaps" which is a real condition that you can look up and maybe find useful information. If not, then I hope you eventually feel better anyway.
https://twitter.com/Telepeturtle/st.....90792687706117

I think I've had brain zaps before. This is more of a physical convulsion, like remembering something cringy you did yesterday only more depressing. Or maybe that's what brain zaps are, I don't know.

If you don't know about it there's a cool song named "memento mori" from crywank. I love it and it's exactly what you drew, but still kinda depressing. (The artist name really tell what you can expect from this album :D)

Well, that's why you make the most of the time you have.

It's never enough

Of course not, that's why what you do get is so important. Just hoping to say something positive that can be an immediate reply to that when it hits.

On a more positive note, so will everyone you hate.

I try not to hate anyone, it's tiring.

every damn night

Well, at least it's a far less selfish form of existential angst. Family first!

What a blessed existence you must lead if you can just casually call everyone else's worries and fears about the condition, direction, or ultimate result of their lives "selfish." We should all be so fortunate.

To be fair, the fear of being seen as selfish is also a constant one.

To the selfish, all are selfish. That's especially true when it comes to people who'll call you selfish for daring to examine your own life.

I think you've got that backwards.

No, you don't think at all. You let other people think for you. That's how you can go through life never having to question yourself.

Hey. I'm sorry. I understand what you meant.

I wonder if other animals can experience existential dread too.

I'd be surprised if they didn't

Dying cats try to find somewhere safe and hidden to expire. :<

The thought that I will probably spend to majority of my life in a world where my parents no longer exist is a thought that started to haunt me since a couple of years ago.

That's what's been doing it for me. You lose 2/3rds of your close family within two years and suddenly you obsess endlessly over the last.

Sure, but you'll eventually die too. So either you'll start a new life with no memory of who you used to be; or you'll get to see them all again; or you'll just cease to feel or think anything at all, as if you just went to sleep.

Death is just a door, and there's no need to fear what's on the other side. 👍

I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of withering in a world without them.

You always have a choice, even when the options suck.

Existential thoughts happen more than I'd like. I won't get into them, but much like what you've drawn, the intrusion can really take the wind out of the sails you've mustered up to that point.
Why do, when it all turns to dust. On the other hand, if everything turns to dust anyway, might as well do what you can to enjoy the time you have, and the time you have with those you love.

I try to remind myself of this line from Babylon 5 in such moments: "We’re all dying. 20 years, 50 years, 100 years, it doesn’t mater. What matters is what we do while we’re waiting around; How we live out the seconds in-between."

Anyway, I give you hugs :3c

Yeah, it be like that

Same dude. Only instead of die, it's abandon me .-.

That too.

It's a train you see coming and are helpless to stop. Seizing your mind with terrifying clarity, until you can get drunk once more on the present day to day agenda.

I get through it by thinking about my role to play: staying alive to spare them the even more terrible burden of losing a child

I love you and Ill always be here man

man these kinds of thoughts suck a lot, brains are dumb and I do not benefit from suddenly thinking about this when laying down to sleep D: Hopefully you've got ways to navigate through such chatterbrain times

We all think about dying. Don't let it kill ya. =3