"Sometimes, big cats do cry"
Personal introspective project, yes another one. Its easy for me to express some feelings drawing than just talking.
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A little vent (you dont have to read, muchotexto):

I always feel like I'm between two sides that are always fighting, and if I try to pacify or act, I just end up getting hurt.
Since I was little, my parents were so different from each other that every time they spoke they ended up in an argument over some stupid thing that can be easily resolved. My friends at school always keep fighting and end up destroying the group. making it difficult to keep in touch with all of them. In college, the first year, I joined a small group of friends, long story short, some of them got bored with our activities and just leave the meetings with random excuses, the group disintegrates again. This year I finally met someone who ended up being my first boyfriend, he had broken up with his ex-boyfriend and I was in the middle, trying to cheer her up when he only thought about his ex, he keeps texting and talking about him. Also he took some photos of myself withough consent. I was in a super toxic relationship where I was just his consolation (and not just emotional) and I just wanted to break up, I couldn't stand that relationship anymore.
And my current group of friends is the same, someone started acting like a jerk, everyone thinks he's a jerk, but I get it and I really want to keep in touch with everyone.
I KNOW I can't please everyone, some people are assholes by default, but I can't be an idiot to myself.

So I always feel like I'm in between
between a war
between a press
Between two expanding forces that will explode at some point
And me with the same happy mask, being "the good vibes bro", keeping the pieces together, without taking too much risk or one of the sides will play against me.
I can't be alone, it's painful and consumes all my willpower, on the other hand I just want to disappear and see what it's like not to be there, between the conflicts, I don't care what they do, I just want to have a good time with my friends, you know?
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Im actually fine, Im just tired mentally from finals and everything that happened.
Speaking of the drawing, first I wanted to sketch some serious looking cat, and just got inspiration and finishing it while talking to a friend all night in a discord call. You know who you are ;)

Also, it took me a while to make the tears not to look like coom xd