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I have been wanting to do a post like this for basically the whole year, give an update on what's going on since uploads are infrequent, commissions are closed yadda yadda.
For starters I got fired from my job... for apparently being over paid (even though my hours had been getting cut). Got told over the phone while I was on vacation that my position would be filled by someone else full time, and let me state that there were zero problems with my work, I was on time usually the first one there, trusted enough to have a key to the place, everyone liked me and I got along with everyone in turn, I made purchases out of my pocket for the store, I used time off on a holiday to clean the shop top to bottom since no one has ever done it before, I was good at my job and I got back stabbed for it, while I was out of state. And keep in mind I was paid the lowest out of my coworkers and yet somehow I was still "over paid". I have never felt more betrayed in my life and to think a small business would do me dirty like that. I just don't understand what to do, so far my 20's have been full of fucking failure and I just don't get it, I did the best i could every day and I get treated like shit in the end for it, it's no wonder why people fucking lose it when they keep getting handed L after L and it's also no wonder why people don't want to work anymore. Unreasonable expectations for low pay. Once again, whenever I feel things looking up for me I just get shitted on and knocked back to square one.
Honestly I'm at a loss and I don't know what to do next, get another job and hope they don't fire me? Waste all my money travelling? Gamble it all on pointless endeavors that may come up nil AGAIN? Or should I just fucking end it, lord knows I've thought about that a lot but even that doesn't sound appealing cause that's letting the thing that's bothering me win. The only thing on my mind right now is beating the fuck out of my former boss, I have never wished death on anyone but he fucking deserves it.
Will I do commissions again? It's a maybe but not right now. In the future I'll announce something, price adjustments and what not but for now I'll just be lurking. Open to any suggestions and advice because I'm all out of ideas.
Also Happy New Year.
For starters I got fired from my job... for apparently being over paid (even though my hours had been getting cut). Got told over the phone while I was on vacation that my position would be filled by someone else full time, and let me state that there were zero problems with my work, I was on time usually the first one there, trusted enough to have a key to the place, everyone liked me and I got along with everyone in turn, I made purchases out of my pocket for the store, I used time off on a holiday to clean the shop top to bottom since no one has ever done it before, I was good at my job and I got back stabbed for it, while I was out of state. And keep in mind I was paid the lowest out of my coworkers and yet somehow I was still "over paid". I have never felt more betrayed in my life and to think a small business would do me dirty like that. I just don't understand what to do, so far my 20's have been full of fucking failure and I just don't get it, I did the best i could every day and I get treated like shit in the end for it, it's no wonder why people fucking lose it when they keep getting handed L after L and it's also no wonder why people don't want to work anymore. Unreasonable expectations for low pay. Once again, whenever I feel things looking up for me I just get shitted on and knocked back to square one.
Honestly I'm at a loss and I don't know what to do next, get another job and hope they don't fire me? Waste all my money travelling? Gamble it all on pointless endeavors that may come up nil AGAIN? Or should I just fucking end it, lord knows I've thought about that a lot but even that doesn't sound appealing cause that's letting the thing that's bothering me win. The only thing on my mind right now is beating the fuck out of my former boss, I have never wished death on anyone but he fucking deserves it.
Will I do commissions again? It's a maybe but not right now. In the future I'll announce something, price adjustments and what not but for now I'll just be lurking. Open to any suggestions and advice because I'm all out of ideas.
Also Happy New Year.
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I'm almost going through a similar situation to yours. Despite a job that I like average, I give very good results to the company both on the production of parts and on cleaning. My colleagues appreciate me and so do I.
But despite this, my boss and the team leader tend to constantly belittle me with stupid reproaches, supposed complaints from colleagues (which I am certain are lies from the boss, knowing the person before being my boss ), and congratulates us can, preferring to tell us that the worst is coming, while records are low, as they show us in these statistics. Worse, I ask each time if they are so good, to achieve the best results after more than 40 years of existence in the company, to have a raise, but I get laughed at...
I'm sure I'm going to get kicked out one day, with a backstab, despite my efforts to do an incredible job.
But I'm going to stop talking about my job, but tell you that I experienced something similar, not knowing what to do with life, being completely lost, not seeing the meaning of life, to the point of thinking about suicide. But because of the existential crisis I had, I was afraid of life after death, that there is nothing, that it is nothingness. I experienced this crisis for 1 to 2 years, until I didn't know what to do with my life, seeing no point in living, if it was to die like shit.
The advice I would say for your situation would be time. Since you are in a situation of confusion, frustration and depression, no matter how much I try to help you, it will only be able to help you if you help yourself and only time can help you see more clearly, like me with my depression that I had 10 years ago and my existential crisis 6 years ago. It won't be easy, but I would say it's the only way to overcome this and then you'll see where you're headed for the next stage of your life.
I don't know if this helps you, especially since I tend to be silent, often being in my own bubble, and avoid getting involved in this kind of thing, being afraid of creating shit while wanting to help (having had bad experiences in the past...).
Happy New Year to you as well.
But despite this, my boss and the team leader tend to constantly belittle me with stupid reproaches, supposed complaints from colleagues (which I am certain are lies from the boss, knowing the person before being my boss ), and congratulates us can, preferring to tell us that the worst is coming, while records are low, as they show us in these statistics. Worse, I ask each time if they are so good, to achieve the best results after more than 40 years of existence in the company, to have a raise, but I get laughed at...
I'm sure I'm going to get kicked out one day, with a backstab, despite my efforts to do an incredible job.
But I'm going to stop talking about my job, but tell you that I experienced something similar, not knowing what to do with life, being completely lost, not seeing the meaning of life, to the point of thinking about suicide. But because of the existential crisis I had, I was afraid of life after death, that there is nothing, that it is nothingness. I experienced this crisis for 1 to 2 years, until I didn't know what to do with my life, seeing no point in living, if it was to die like shit.
The advice I would say for your situation would be time. Since you are in a situation of confusion, frustration and depression, no matter how much I try to help you, it will only be able to help you if you help yourself and only time can help you see more clearly, like me with my depression that I had 10 years ago and my existential crisis 6 years ago. It won't be easy, but I would say it's the only way to overcome this and then you'll see where you're headed for the next stage of your life.
I don't know if this helps you, especially since I tend to be silent, often being in my own bubble, and avoid getting involved in this kind of thing, being afraid of creating shit while wanting to help (having had bad experiences in the past...).
Happy New Year to you as well.
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