I don't know the details, and as an Internets person, I don't wanna get all nosey and possibly make you more uncomfortable than you already are, but if something is interfering with your happiness and making you feel bad about yourself, then no, it is not worth it. Let go and high tail it! Don't get trapped.

You're a really cool gal, Sam, and you deserve to be happy!

i second what Wolfy said, Sam. don't allow anything bad to happen to yourself you certainly don't deserve it.

this makes me sad but it really is a perfect visual representation of this kind of situation :c I'm sorry if he's been jerking you around

It was really just Saturday, there's no pattern or anything (that I've noticed yet). We were supposed to get together and he wound up in Seattle the night before, said he'd text me when he got back into town and I never heard from him. Spent all fucking day waiting, I'd made dill bread and got all my art supplies ready to take over there... It was pretty fucked up. He apologized, but I doubt he knew how much thought I'd been putting into it.

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yeah, not everyone realizes that some people REALLY MEAN IT when they say "please text me" or whatever. I know a lot of my friends are well-meaning but when I was living with them would do things like not let me know if they would be home late or NOT COMING HOME AT ALL and I would sometimes stay up late worried they were dead or something 8| unfortunately, being really considerate doesn't come naturally to everyone, particularly if they're young.

from the other stuff you've said it seems like he's a nice enough guy, perhaps if he knew how important it is to you that he keeps good communication with you?

Yeah :/ I've been making up all kinds of excuses for him haha. He did tell me from the first day we hung out that he's pretty bad at keeping friends, but he wanted to try and do this friendship right. I dunno. I guess I could mention it to him but I have this fear that he'll think I"m trying to be his mother or something and just say screw it, it's not worth it. I dunno. I just have to decide if it's worth going through this again, or just talking to him about it. I know if he decides it's not worth it, then HE'S not worth it, either. Guess that just goes to show how desperate I am :/

if you tell him your concerns and he ends up being a douchebag about it then good riddance. but if you don't say anything you'll never know. him admitting he's been bad at keeping friends may have been his invitation for you to tell him if he's doing something wrong so he can fix it. I'd say it means something if he told you he wants to do this friendship right :3 I'd say it means he does care.

try and be confident in yourself and not let the negative thoughts overpower you. you've shown you've got it in you just by reaching out to him in the first place :>

Maybe you're right... He seemed sort've oblivious when he apologized, like it should have been enough. I offered him a ride home too last night, and he politely declined and said he's ride his bike for the exercise, which I skewed to mean "No, I don't want to hang out with you or explain myself about Saturday". I'm.. really bad about doing that sort of stuff. So... I may have smiled, waved goodbye, and sped away like an asshole. This all just feels like something I don't want to deal with. I don't know if he took anything away from that anyhow, maybe he thought I was trying to show off or something, or just didn't think about it at all, but I was pretty mad. He suggested we hang otu this week instead, so I'm just goign to wait for him to contact me with a day, and if he doesn't, it won't happen.

BUHHHHHHHHHHH sorry for the wall of tmi text. I've just been letting this get to me way too hard lately. I appreciate you talking with me about it <3

yeah. you gotta remember that people probably aren't thinking those sorts of things about you. it can be easy to build up really negative scenarios in your own mind but the reality of the situation often isn't so bad at all.

and ITS OKAY DON'T WORRY I'm just glad to help however little I can :3 if you catch me on AIM sometime you can always hit me up there, too!

8C *hugs*