sus has been spotted :O

I used to think people could see the gay on my face whenever I talked about girls T_T

wish i could know back then or even now if I am gay or straight :|
yeah got few crushes coz i thought they look pretty or cute or were just nice to me, but i didn't know how to socialize or even how to invite a girl to a date
but mostly talking with friends about crushes or girlfriends was and still is awkward to me

most people start to tease me, even family, expecting to have a serious relationship at my age or even children, and then they ask if i have someone and then i just poker face blank stare o_o, or straight up exaggerate, coz don't know how to react to that
guess they already assume i'm gay
in the past puberty me would come up with fake relationships and girlfriends, mostly inspired by celebrities or fiction anime characters
now days i just go with the blank stare or silence, and think they think that i'm gay