Hey all, bit of a different post.

Its sad knowing a lot of people won't care but I don't blame them, this is a generally pretty kinky account, so I'll summarize my BS rant below:

I'M TAKING A BREAK

But not from commissions, I need money.

I've been in a really rough place recently and yes, I know, I've opened up about my finances already but it isn't just that. I've been feeling so disconnected from everything around me, like I don't even know who I am. Am I potsnspots? Am I Emmie? Am I Evan?

The emotions I feel are ones I've known for so long. I've been open about how I've suffered abuse. It just gets so, so, tiring.

It feels like with everything piling on and on I can't be free. First I had my lovely dog pass away, then I lost my job and now I'm suffering another rough, no, whateversworsethanrough patch. And it really fucking sucks. Depression sucks.

I don't want anyone to worry about me though, I have support around me and yes, I've thought about it, but I have the people around me to keep me safe. I suppose this was just a message to be open, because with relative anonymity, its easy to be open.

That's why I turned to this community. I can be myself, I can be kinky, I can be weird, I can be gross. That's really nice honestly.

I dunno. I guess things just suck. And it feels like they're gonna stay that way.

Well, I'll be taking a break from general posts until I feel better but I will continue to take commissions as, what I've stated hundreds of times sorry again, I'm very poor.

Hope yall are doing well and dont stoop to my level, lol.

Evan, out.