I give up, I'm quiting for good I hate to say it and write it, but I think I'm going to retire from Deviantart and FA again, it has been two years ago when I last did this and I might retire from drawing as well, clearly I'm still feeling like a failure and I hate to leave on doing something I have been doing all of my life, but sadly, I think I'm going to have to let the drawing thing go. After what happened back in April, I started to hate myself a bit and I was angry, I was trying to be supportive for my girlfriend, Aura and her friend, Emily but then it failed all because of me, nobody but me is a loser and I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself for it, I think this was the biggest mistake I have ever made in my life and I think now my girlfriend and her friend is upset and maybe even hates me now, I want to say thank you for all of your support of my personal sacramento group here on Devaintart or FA and over 4 years on here will be coming up on June 22nd then my 19th birthday on July 1st, I have been on FA for 3 years now back in May, I think it is time, I guess I'll never be an artist now, I'm am a college student and I think I plan to drop out and give up with drawing, I guess I'll be a loser for the rest of my life and I blame myself for all the mess I created, I hate myself and I lost my confidence of being what I wanted, I was so happy back in Febuary when I first started dating my girlfriend, things were going great and now I have let myself be an idiot for all I done and I hate Paypal, screw Paypal I hate you, I hate myself, but I won't kill myself, I just want to make a final goodbye and I know two years ago I did this and came back 27 days later but this time, I'm retiring for good and I want to say it was fun and I hope you guys enjoy yourselves and have a good life, JalenJimmyandTasha and JalenSacramento is done and I want to tell you all for the last time, thank you for all and I hope you all have a great 4th of July, the rest of 2024 and, more to come over the next years.