In 2021, I was fortunate enough to have an apartment all for myself, away from my mother. This, combined with COVID-19 making it really easy to barely put any effort in high school because of how unprepared my school was for it, gave me a lot of free time. Due to poor habits I got from my mother and not needing to do anything because I was very financially fortunate due to something that happened in 2020, I spent a lot of my time just... on my computer, all day. I had a really poor sleep schedule, and even now, I still struggle with that sometimes. I also was keenly aware of the fact that my mental image of myself did not match my body, but wasn't sure how to go about it or what I really wanted to be.

This was the start of a rapid descent of my mental health. That, combined with the lack of motivation to draw because doing commissions fucked my perception of my art, meant that a lot of my drawings were just vent drawings. I'm in a better place now, mentally, and thankfully I never did anything extreme. But it wasn't a fun place to be, which feels shitty to look back on (and especially shitty at the time) because I was very very fortunate in terms of finances and responsibilities.

Finished on March 25, 2021. Done on MediBang Paint Pro with the Wacom Intuos S.