It's so very frustrating..
Self love and patience will help.

As can you, love~

Yeah i get that. like, there's so many public/24-7 profiles sometimes you wonder if just wanting to indulge in sometimes is you being part of a minority. Like, there's more things than just that.

Honestly I just wish to dabble and not feel bad for doing so. That is indeed the first hurdle.

Eh, I just be me whatever that is.
I can't be a fake me.
Often I'm big and smol, vicious and kind at the same time.

But that's why my fursona is a chimera. Be a bit of everything all of the time,

It's good that you stay true to yourself. :3

I feel the same way. Yeah they are nice and can comfort at times but other times they just don't do it for me you know. I like to help others feel little and stuff and that can be snuff for me at times too. While still other times I am fine just being 'normal' and stuff. So no your not weird your normal and should not feel bad for it and if anyone says other wise just ignor them and move on they are not worth your time. I hope this helps

Also it's a cute pic

Thank you for your kind words. <3
It is a process I am going through but I hope to come out the other side
improved and comfortable with myself and my specific needs. <3

That's all anyone should ask of you. What ever makes you happy and comfortable is what is important not what they want (to a extent give take thing) but nothing that goes over your comfort you know what I mean....your happiness is important too and it matters.
you will be strong and better for it once you come out the other side

Oh, this is likely a lot more common than you think, dear. <3

And speaking for myself specifically, definitely how I tend to approach it. Like most things in my vast range of goofy interests, I simply gotta be 'in the mood' for it. I don't even mean 'erotically so'...just even to loaf around in general, if I feel getting getting padded up and putting on some cute outfit, I will. Or just the outfit and no pamps...whatevz!

Most times though, I'm just not feelin it in general, so I don't bother with either. I mean sure, everybody can enjoy this stuff however they want totes, but for me it's entirely "When I feel like it"...and I should say that's perfectly acceptable.

In fact, you really never want this kind of fun stuff to feel like a 'chore' or some kinda obligation, so I think it really should be fully subject to your desire overall. <3

See, how you talk about it is how I feel about it a lot of the time. I need to be in a specific mood, but my issues lie
in not indulging if I am simply due to my own insecurities and feeling extremely weird doing it. I often rely
on weed to allow myself to lower the walls in my mind. It's extremely efficient and very fun, but I do not want
it to be my crutch, you know?

With that being said, I am with you on this. I do not wish for it to be a chore. I just need to work on allowing myself
to.. be myself. Whatever that may be.

If you ever need a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to let me know you can private message me if you want just let me know

Thank you~

You're welcome