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Losing myself to the void
I just felt like drawing this. It's hard to express what I'm feeling. I just feel like part of me is dying. I'm tired all the time. I'm no longer excited about life. I don't know. Is it burnout? Is it depression? What am I unhappy about? Or am I unhappy about being unhappy? I'm at a point in my life where I feel like I've gotten what I wanted, I feel like I should be happy. But I'm not. I'm miserable. I want to be happy. But I'm not. I feel like everyday is the same, trapped in a cycle. On the first day of therapy I said I felt trapped like a caged bird. I still feel the same. I'm less anxious now, but I'm still depressed. I don't know.
I'm angry. But I can't really express it. I want to lost it. Hurt someone. Break something. But I know I can't take it back after that. So I'm just keeping it all inside. It fucking sucks. School fucking sucks. I hate everything. And I don't know why. So i just feel muted and dead inside instead. It fucking sucks.
I don't actually hate animating. I'm just frustrated that something I love is giving me so much grief. I'm have to animate stuff based on what my lead wants, it's not an issue, but it's just work, not creativity.
I'm angry. But I can't really express it. I want to lost it. Hurt someone. Break something. But I know I can't take it back after that. So I'm just keeping it all inside. It fucking sucks. School fucking sucks. I hate everything. And I don't know why. So i just feel muted and dead inside instead. It fucking sucks.
I don't actually hate animating. I'm just frustrated that something I love is giving me so much grief. I'm have to animate stuff based on what my lead wants, it's not an issue, but it's just work, not creativity.
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People tend to make the mistake in thinking that you have to be physically overworked to be overwhelmed, but you can just as easily get overwhelmed by life mentally. And its really easy to spiral into being more overwhelmed because when your head is overwhelmed all problems seem bigger. They in turn feed the cycle.
School can be depressing, speaking from experience. From the soumd of previous posts you sound quite overloaded with work and mental stress from the outside. The best advice I could give you is to try and trim your work and responsibilities to just you. Avoid taking extra tasks from others, don't pick up the slack for lazy people in your group. Aim to reduce your thoughts to your needs first. It sounds selfish, but always putting others first wil lead you to a breaking point. Sit down and look at all the extra stuff you do and start trimming those away. Won't make the stress dissapear, but it may lessen it and give you some brearhing room. Take breaks when you can and understand that they are vital to your wellbeing.
All in all its a though situation to be in. I hope this stress starts to fade as time goes on. You deserve better.
School can be depressing, speaking from experience. From the soumd of previous posts you sound quite overloaded with work and mental stress from the outside. The best advice I could give you is to try and trim your work and responsibilities to just you. Avoid taking extra tasks from others, don't pick up the slack for lazy people in your group. Aim to reduce your thoughts to your needs first. It sounds selfish, but always putting others first wil lead you to a breaking point. Sit down and look at all the extra stuff you do and start trimming those away. Won't make the stress dissapear, but it may lessen it and give you some brearhing room. Take breaks when you can and understand that they are vital to your wellbeing.
All in all its a though situation to be in. I hope this stress starts to fade as time goes on. You deserve better.
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