Old Twitter vent post.
I am ok! This is an old Twitter dump. Do not be alarmed!

But here's some fun rambly info about my thoughts n shit on the subject for anyone interested!

I just want to draw happy silly stuff and I'm flabbergasted that it makes me somehow "flammable" or that people have asked me
"you don't draw cub porn do you?"
Of fucking course I don't. I was abused as a child. Why the fuck would I draw child abuse?
Do you see anything even remotely suggestive in my gallery? No. Because this is A SFW ONLY ACCOUNT.
The first thought you have when seeing a child in art should not be about porn. 🫠

If ppl are drawing abdl? live and let live. Not my kink. But hey. As long as it only involves consenting adults that's fine.

I can try and distance myself away from the kink/NSFW community of AB/DL or Age Play aaaaalll day every day.
Make it known that this is not a kink for me, or many others. I can staple "not for kink" to my fucking forehead and the knee jerk reaction from people who don't Get It™ will always assume:
"Oh that HAS to be a fetish thing. It's weird so it has to be SEX RELATED"
(Nah for me it's just intense nostalgia for happy childhood experiences after experiencing traumatic events and then abuse, over and over and over, or it's just... ppl who can actually remember what they felt and thought as a kid and therefore treat them like little humans and not mushbrain "property" that belong to their parents??)

It's very disheartening.
It feels like the old assumption that
"All furries yiff in fursuits! Furry is a fetish. A sex thing!" "all gays are pedophiles!"
So all people who just want to draw happy childhoods for their fictional made up funny animal blorbos as a way to feel happy, (possibly heal) are pedophiles as far as the Internet is concerned? 😬

Another part of the (my) trauma™ is perfectionism, manifesting in the form of over explaining™ so here I am typing a silly little paragraph.
Traumatized child grew up to become an inevitable adult that wants to draw happy fictional children living a(n impossibly unrealistic) wholesome happy childhood because it makes him happy? Oh, the horror!!!

It's fandom policing and a waste of energy I should not be spending. I only have like 3 spoons. LMAO.
I just wanted to drop a silly vent paragraph somewhere. Leave a "weird legacy" to 'explain myself' if I ever die and can't over explain like I'm currently doing from my grave. XD

It's just virtue signaling 90% of the time saying "look how good of a person I am for thinking a basic idea like children shouldn't be involved in kink is groundbreaking!"
... Yes. That's correct. Am I drawing children in kink?? No. I'm drawing children being children. Because I remember what it was like, how I felt, and it lets me feel a little bit of FUN AND WHIMSY every couple of months.
You're right. NSFW of minors is bad. I agree! (Illegal in many states even!) But maybe help actual children and stop picking fights for Internet clout? Oh no wait that takes actual effort, people like faceless nameless theoretical (fictional) victims because a real victim can counter their single minded take, disagree, or react in ways they don't like.

Say it with me:
Drawing CP is bad. Even illegal.
Drawing a fictional animal child in overalls with a coloring book that is in not sexualized in any way shape or form, is? Not CP.