Hello I wrote this for tonight, I know I’ve been writing a lot of depressing things lately but I just want to get how I feel out here instead of keeping it bottled up. On another note I wrote this with the topic of addiction in it, I’ve been struggling with the thought of drugs for a few weeks now. My friends seem to care about my problems but I feel like such a joke to everyone. People just laugh my issues and thoughts off like it’s all so funny to them. I’ve been offered drugs in the past and honestly I think about it a lot and how differently it could have gone if I had just said yes. I got tested for weed a week ago since my mom thought I was high, it was negative of course. I don’t want to be a burden on anyone with my drug issues, I just feel things are getting out of control.

Sorry for my long rant, have a wonderful night everyone.