Hello everyone, I wanna start this off by apologizing to those of you, my followers, for my recent activity and display of negativity. If you will due to recent events going on or that have been going on in my private life, I do not mean to discuss things in my private life in the public form and I try my very hardest to deal with it as an adult by myself privately, however, years and years of holding things and sometimes everything that I hold them eventually comes out, but I did not mean for it to come out to y’all and for that I do apologize . With that said in regards to the drawing, there is a lot of conflicting emotions and feelings for this particular entity or person and due to recent events as some of you may know I have been going through hell with a person of my past that makes me sick to the core. It involves the drawing because it’s a shadowy burden not so much a bad burden or maybe it is, but there is a entity now that that intrigues me and by the way, I do not mean literal entity because that is kind of scary. But this a burden that I have is wanting to express certain things, but can’t because I am scared to pursue anything and given by my past, the fear is valid part of the fear is losing something good part of this fear can also stem beyond just associating, and part of my inactivity is because of that but mostly to limit my online presence because of recent events between me and my ex . There’s a lot going on on my mind and I don’t know exactly how to organize it or articulate it in a coherent way and I don’t even think me drawing which I can’t draw for shit can help to articulate that as well. I want things as they are now I don’t want things to change for the better only for it to die and linger in my memory bank only for me to daydream about what could have been. I just don’t know what to do and all these recent feelings that are good and towards the entity, it’s too fast in my opinion a friend of mine best described it as me having too much care and love in my heart and it’s hard for me to keep it inside and if a person just so happened to show itself it is blurred out on that person and I don’t mean for that… ugh anyway I’ll be posting more stuff. I guess still trying to organize my last predator post for a long while but either which way. Stay safe out there everyone much love to you all and I appreciate every single one of you who has stayed watching my dumb ass.

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