I'm usually not one to spend a lot of time throwing myself into a huge vent piece. (I actually needed to resize this one due to it's original size). On top of that.. I'm not one to normally discuss my feelings openly. But it's a New Year. & I want to live more freely, instead of keeping things bottled up. In April I'm gonna be moving across the country.. Like legit lower West Coast to upper East Coast. & while yes I am moving with my loving girlfriend.. I am absolutely terrified that this move might be the wrong thing. But in the same sense I know it's not a bad thing.. it's what I need to do. To escape toxic family life, politics that harm me, and so on. This whole thing has been super hard since before this my husband & I decided it was time for a divorce.. we no longer were functioning together & for lack of better words shit was getting crazy. My life feels so grey.. but when I look towards the future... I see bright vibrant colors. Maybe I'm intimidated by the idea of seeing my life so clear & full of color, after living in black & white for so long. But I know somewhere in me that this is needed.

Thanks for whoever reads & favorites this.. Just needed to get it off my chest.