I was on HRT for two years before getting back together with Accalia, but I refused to think about names or gender identity labels. I originally thought that Accalia wouldn't have romantic interest in me considering her past comments, but she assured that she'd discovered that she was bi and had no issues with trans people.

Then we got together, and she convinced me to take a long extended break from the HRT under the premise that it was making it harder for me to handle my grief. I was a little paranoid that it was actually just her wanting me off the HRT, but she'd made so many statements about her willingness to be supportive that I elected to trust her.

When I hit the point where I started thinking it would be important to acknowledge some labels for it, that was when I discovered how cold and distant she'd act any time the topic was brought up. I wanted to connect with her about the identity crisis I was experiencing, but she refused to engage any discussion about it. Leading me to connecting with some trans friends about it instead.

I still trusted her. Her expressions that she was okay with it and that she'd be supportive. I didn't know what to make of the fact that her behavior didn't match that. I was so scared of identifying myself as trans that I couldn't tell if she was actually giving negative signals or if I was just scared and paranoid. The answer to that would become very obvious later on.

All my 'nonfiction' comics will can be found organized here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11101425/

Characters: Amaiya, Accalia Rose Pendragon Joestar
Owners: Amaiya-  amaiya, Accalia- Montanna R.A.
Artist: Kitty_Love