A vent piece that took way too long to make.
Basically I feel "fake" sometimes, like I'm always wearing a mask to look happy in front of others.
When I'm streaming I try to be happy and excited. But deep down it feels like it's all an act, because in the end I'm still jaded and depressed...
For starters, this year hasn't exactly been kind to me, and I've been depressed since.
I know I should count my blessings and all that, but depression really makes it hard for me to feel any ounce of joy anymore.
Trust me, I want nothing more than to be that always excited child I was back then. But I just can't find a way to go back...

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